It's 4am and I can't sleep, been having troubles lately.

I try to help my family the best I can, but it doesn't seem like I can do enough. Yesterday I went out to help my aunt shovel and all I get is "I didn't ask you to help." And that's the issue. She never asks for help and then later on she says how she's the only one who does anything around here and that people should start helping her more.

I'm at a point where I just feel I can do anything to make her happy, and thus that makes me unhappy.

I kinda hate this feeling, idk, sometimes I just wanna run away and never look back, but k don't want to leave the people I care about. She can be difficult and we obviously both have things we need to work through, but living together can be too much. It's not like I can even afford to move out, especially now that I'm laid off. Some distance would be nice.

Despite that things aren't all that bad, actually sat outside for a bit since it's a nice night, haven't felt that at peace for a long time. It was nice.

Honestly think being able to just vent is helping me, it feels like a weight is being lifted as I type.

Life ain't all that bad, I'm just in a bit out a rough spot, I think years of pushing my feelings and issues away has caused it to just all come out at the same time. I think I reached my breaking point and I just can't hide the fact that I'm unhappy anymore.

Well, that's all for now,

Have a good night/day