I woke up the next morning already feeling exhausted...this is going to be alright...I can do this. I groaned getting out of my warm blanket and putting my feet onto the cool floor. I walked into the bathroom and took a quick shower. After my shower, I blow-dried my hair and walked to my closet to get some clothes. Groggily I opened the door to my closet grabbing my uniform before quickly slipping it over my shoulders. 

I went back into the bathroom and put on my eyeliner and brushed my teeth. Looking in the mirror one last time...I frowned at the hair on my head that stuck up...I sighed knowing it was a waste to try and put it down...

I grabbed my bag off of the couch and slid it on my shoulder. I looked back at my apartment...it felt so cold and lonely here...Jesus Christ...I think I'm losing my mind...I'm always worrying about Kokichi, that I feel even more lonely an anxious now...

Shaking my head to cut off all my thoughts short, I walked out of the front door making sure to lock the door behind me. "Shuichi! You want to walk to class together!" Kaito yelled standing next to Maki. I waved to them and we all walked to class together.

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Classes were the same as always...Kokichi ignoring me...me being distracted because Kokichi wouldn't talk to me...Kaede gets worried and trying to get me to talk to him...this whole thing is making me feel so discouraged...

"Shuichi are you going to eat?" Kaede asked making me blink twice, trying to zone back into the present... "Yeah, sorry...I just need to go to the restroom real quick..." I said slowly getting up and walking to the bathroom.

I really need to stop worrying so much about Kokichi...I looked into the mirror seeing bags forming under my eyes. I sighed and put some water on my face, making sure not to mess up my makeup...It calmed me down a bit and woke me up. You can do this Shuichi!

I turned to leave the bathroom before I heard someone gagging...Who could be gagging? I walked over to the source of the sound and found that the door was unlocked. I slowly pushed open the door to see Kokichi in the stall with his hand down his throat. "K-Kokichi?!" I gasped grabbing his hand and pulling him up from the toilet. 

"Shuichi?! Why the hell are you here?..." He asked sounding more tired the more time that passed. "Kokichi! What were you doing?!" I yelled feeling tears falling out of my eyes. I should have noticed this! He was hurting himself, he was not getting enough food, he is not getting enough nutrition.

"I was getting rid of all the food I ate. Why do you care anyway?" He asked falling back a bit. I pulled him closer to me, holding him in an embrace. "Because I don't want you hurting yourself..." I whispered into his hair making him scoff.

"I'm not sure you are being honest with me right now...I thought you liked seeing me..." He cut himself off by falling asleep. I felt so worried about the boy in my arms. What should I do? I shook my head and pulled him into my arms and carried him out of the bathroom in bridal style.

I walked him to my apartment and opened my door closing it behind me. I put him onto my bed covering him with my sheets. He was sweating and he looked pale...paler than usual. I went and grabbed a cloth and got it wet with cold water before I placed it on his head. I noticed the bandage on his forehead from him hitting his head on the bleachers...

"Kokichi, I just want you to be honest with me...tell me what I can do to help you..."

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I texted Kaede about what happened and she told me she would excuse me from classes for the rest of the day. I looked back over to Kokichi who was still sleeping in my bed...

"Shuichi?" He asked confused before he started freaking out. "What the hell am I doing here?!" He jumped out of the bed wobbling a bit before he walked away from me. "Kokichi, you shouldn't stand up so suddenly...you need to get some rest," I said grabbing his hand again. "NO!" He yelled before he rushed out of my apartment leaving me even more worried.

I don't want him to be alone...he must have always been alone...maybe that's why he was avoiding everyone...because they all hated him before...

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I walked over to Kokichi's apartment. I need to get some answers. My feet felt heavier with every step I took. I can do this! You just have to go and talk to him...again...I silently hoped to myself that he wouldn't yell at me again.

"Kokichi?" I asked knocking on the door. "Go away Shuichi!" He yelled from the other side of the door. It sounded like he was on the other side of the door. "I know you don't want to talk to me right now...but I wanted to tell you that I don't know what I did to you before...but I want to help you Kokichi..." I felt my hand, shake against the door. I took in a deep shaky breath... "Please Kokichi..."I stood there in a silence that burned my ears. 

I felt the door creak open making me almost fall over. "Why do you want to help me?" He asked glaring at me. I felt my heartbreak...I hate that he hates me now...could we go back to what we were before...you teasing me all the time...although I found it annoying, I liked it...I liked all the attention I got from you...I loved all- "Why now?" He snapped me out of my thoughts making me embarrassed for not responding. 

"We are friends Kokichi and friends help friends," I said pushing the door open. "I don't need any help-" I cut him off by pulling him into my arms. "You do, and I can see that. I want you to be happy and I don't think you are happy the way things are right now." He looked up at me and sighed. He pulled me into his apartment and closed the door. "You really don't have to this Shuichi...you don't have to pity me..." "I'm not pitying you! Do you think that's what this is! I care about you Kokichi! I don't want you to starve! I don't want you to feel like you have to hurt yourself!" I yelled making his eyes go wide. 

"Kokichi-" He cut me off with his finger over my lips. "Shuichi, I didn't mean to make you think I hated you...I thought you hated me...like you did before..." He whispered the last part under his breath...I heard it but decided not to nag him about it. "I don't Kokichi, I want to help you and be your friend." He didn't say anything he just smiled. "Thank you, Shuichi." I smiled back. "Of course Kokichi."