Natsu POV
I slept horrible. The kissing scene was playing at repeat in my mind. I hate how he looked at her. I could be so mad, but I have no right to be. I got out of bed. Happy was shocked to see me out of bed. "Hi Natsu, are we going to eat breakfast together?" "Nah, still not hungry Happy. I'm taking a shower though." He nodded, looking sad. I took a hot shower and felt refreshed, I looked better than yesterday. I said weird stuff to Gray but so what. Then after I dressed myself and Happy finished eating, someone knocked on my front door. I walked towards it and opened it slightly. There stood Lucy and Erza. "Hi Natsu." they both said. "Hi." I said. "You're up, I'm shocked." Lucy said. "Yeah, it is better than sleeping, although I can't sleep." "Do you guys want to come in?" "We came and get you to go to the guild? Are you ready?" "Yeah, I'm ready. Happy you're ready?" "Aye sir." He came flying at us and we all walked together to the guild. Well Happy was flying. It felt for a slight bit like the old days. But I know that's never going to happen again.

"Natsu, are you trying eating at the guild? I mean you haven't eaten in days." Happy said in in worried tone. "You didn't eat for that long? Are you still ill?" Lucy asked and held her hand at my forehead. "You're warm but not warmer than usual." she said. "I can't hold the food inside for long, but I'll try." I told her but she looked like I said something crazy. We came at the guild and it was rowdy as ever. It felt like I came back home. Some random guys were fighting probably about nothing. Erza walked to the bar ordering a strawberry cake. Gray was stripping. Levy was reading. Gajeel was bothering Levy. Droy and Jey getting angry at Gajeel. Wendy and Charle were talking to Romeo. Wow, what Gray was stripping. God he is hot. But I had to swallow hard after what I saw next. Juvia was running after Gray. "Gray-sama don't strip, you should only strip for me." I didn't like the sound of that. I didn't greet them I walked as soon as I could past them to the bar ordering something light to eat. I had to be strong. I ate, and I was glad it stayed inside. I wonder for how long though. Suddenly Gray came with Juvia to the bar. I though he was going to say something about not greeting him. But he said something I didn't see coming. 

"Erza, Natsu, Lucy, Happy I want to tell team Natsu something. Actually I want to ask something. I get Wendy as well stay here a minute." Gray walked away to Wendy. Juvia was standing in front of me acting very nervous and shy. Then Gray came back with Wendy and Charle. "What did you want to ask us Gray?" said Erza. She was dead serious. "I want to ask if it is okay if Juvia joins team Natsu. I mean she is my girlfriend after all." That hit me hard. Not only the joining part but MY girlfriend. I went silent. Lucy answered "Yeah of course. You're more than welcome Juvia." Erza looked mine way worried. She was expecting a response from me but I didn't respond. Wendy said "I'm glad if Juvia-san could join us. We are in your care." After saying that she bowed. Erza sighed and said "I only think she can join if everyone agrees." What is she saying, is she expecting that I will say no. I will be the rude one. I can't do that. Happy said "Juvia joining is okay, aye sir." Charle said "I agree with tomcat." "Natsu? What about you? Do you also agree?" Everyone stared at me. I felt sick already. I didn't want her in our team. But I will be rude right if I refuse as only one. My thoughts kept going forward and backwards. I wasn't realizing I kept silent for a long time. "Oi flame brain, did you damage your brain of what? Say your respond, the question wasn't that hard, even for you." That stung, but it brought me back in reality. My stomach hurled. I had to hurry up if I don't want to puked on them. "Yeah, I guess the more the merrier." I said I tried to say it in a happy voice. But it was a forced monotone voice. "Yea thank you Natsu-san now I can join Gray-sama in all his quests." After that was said I ran to the restroom again. It was too lovey-dovey after all. I puked my food out all of it. What have I done, now I will see them together all the time. I don't know how long I can stand this. I mean I have to eat eventually. 

Someone came inside the restroom again, I hoped it wasn't Gray. But of course it was him, I mean Karma is a bitch. "Oi flame brain, what's wrong with you? You can't handle any food or what? Did the food pit of a stomach of yours broke or something?" "If that was the case I would be much happier. Idiot." "Oi, I'm trying to help you." "I didn't ask for it." "That's right. What is with you lately? You're acting strange." "Are you on repeat or what, stop asking the same question over and over again. Use your brain for once." "Jeesh don't be such an ass. I'm worried about you man." "Whatever." "What took you so long to respond back there?" "I don't know man, I'm..I don't know." "What are you?" "I don't know man stop asking stuff. I'm just not myself lately. I don't know how to explain it." "Try it." "No, I can't. Not to you at least." "What do you mean by that?!" "That if I tell you, you're going to be an ass about it and won't stop bothering me about it." I was getting angry and mine voice was getting louder and louder so I continued. "Every single one of you guys is pushing me in saying it. You. Lucy. Happy. Even Wendy. Stop it! It is annoying!" I yelled. After that I puked some more. Not that there was anything left in my stomach, so it was more like dry heaving. "Oi, but you trusted Erza right. Why her?" "She is the only one who understood me and guessed it herself. She didn't push me in saying anything. But she didn't stopped trying." "What do you mean didn't stop trying? We all did right?" "No, not like her." " What do you mean?" I sighed. "When I isolated myself Lucy and Happy came at my door and wouldn't stop asking me stuff, it was annoying. Erza sometimes just sat there, just talking not asking anything and sometimes just sitting there. And you, you didn't even bother to do anything until I came back already and at that point you just asked a whole lot of questions. Annoying. But the worst part is you are not doing it for me." "That is harsh man, of course I do it for you." "No you don't." "What are you talking about of course I'm worried about you too." "No you are not. You have a girlfriend, why should you bother yourself with your rival. Someone you don't even like." So he heard it that day after all. "You're only doing it because guilt is eating at you." "Guilt?" "Yeah don't play stupid with me. You feel guilty that you didn't come by. That you don't understand what's wrong with me. You're self-centered so you think it is all about you. That's guilt Gray." He was left shocked again. I left the restroom, but I didn't intend to leave the guild just jet.

I walked to Erza and she asked me "Are you okay? You took some time in there. Are you okay with her joining? " I looked at her. "I don't know if I'm okay. Yeah, we talked but Gray doesn't understand a single thing. I am not okay with her joining, I really am not. But I couldn't refuse right. That would make me the rude one." She looked sad and said "Yeah I guess you're right. Want to take a stroll with me to talk about it? You don't have to." "Maybe I should." We both stood up. Lucy came to me and asked what we were planning. "Nothing just taking a stroll with Erza." "Natsu, are you angry with me or something?" "Why do you think that?" "You haven't talked to me about anything. You don't trust me right?" She looked sad. I was getting angry again. "No, because that is all your problem." I yelled. She stumbled back taken back at my words. "Natsu?" I was getting angry and my voice got louder and louder with every word I spoke. "You all think you can help me, but you won't stop bothering me with questions. You're all the same. STOP IT. I hate it when you all act like that." I was breathing heavy. I didn't like what I said but I couldn't take those self-centered minds. Erza laid a hand on my shoulder. "Natsu calm down." She looked with compassion. "Your right Erza, let's walk. I need it more than ever." After that we left.

Gray POV (after Natsu left in the restroom)
I was shocked and frozen again. I am self-centered. I do feel guilty. But it was true what he said. I didn't even bother to come check on him if he was okay. Okay we aren't always on good term, but he still is my nakama, my comrade. I should of have visit him, maybe he is right maybe I feel guilty and a little jealous that he opened up to Erza. That is quite selfish of me. Maybe that is the reason I don't understand him. I walked back at the hall with a heavy load on my shoulders. I see Natsu talking to Erza and they both leaving there booth. I was wondering where they were going. Lucy walked to them and was asking a few questions. Suddenly I hear him raise his voice. I am shocked that he responded like that even to Lucy. But the words he said staid in my head. "You all think you can help me, but you won't stop bothering me with questions. You're all the same. STOP IT. I hate it when you all act like that." He wasn't only talking about Lucy. He was also talking about me. Wow I'm serious self-centered. I think he always talks about me. Then after that he flipped, Erza and Natsu left the guild. There was a heavy atmosphere in the guild after that incident. 

I walked at Lucy. "Are you okay? He was quite pissed off." She turned around and I saw she was crying. "Gray. What am I doing wrong? I have the feeling it's my fault he is acting like that." "That is our problem Lucy." " What do you mean?" "He just mentioned something similar to me. We are both blaming ourselves that he acts like that. But isn't that selfish? I just realized it myself actually." "You mean, because we think it is our fault, Natsu won't open up to us." "Something like that, he hates it that we are blaming ourselves, instead trying to open up to him." "But how? I asked him many times what's wrong." "We have the same problem, we keep asking him questions. He thinks we should try to understand him ourselves, without his help. He hates it when you keep overflowing him with questions." "But I have to reach out to him right, how should I do that if I can't ask him questions." "I don't know jet myself, maybe we shouldn't push ourselves on him for opening up. But we should be ready instead when he feels ready to tell us. Something like that." "I guess, maybe we should let Erza handle it. I hope he will feel better soon." "I hope so too Lucy." I went to Juvia who was staring at Lucy like a love rival. I sighed why is this girl not stopping that stupid behavior. She is my girlfriend and still she is sending those glares at Lucy. "GRAY-SAMA, please put your clothes on." "Again?!" I searched for my clothes put them back on. I walked to Juvia and kissed her. 

After that Erza and Natsu came back from the stroll. Natsu had giant eyes, like he seen a ghost. "Are you.." I stopped mid-sentence because I was asking again, stupid me. He looked my way swiftly and went to the bar he didn't bother to look or say anything to me. Suddenly Elfman came asking Natsu for a fight. Natsu turned around of his stool, looked at Elfman and nodded no. "Sorry Elfman, not feeling too well to fight." Everyone was shocked I mean Natsu is not fighting. I actually wasn't that shocked Natsu didn't fight for days. He became so much slimmer I'm impressed he is able to move. I saw Lucy walk to Natsu, I decided I should go as well. I knew Lucy was going to apologize, I needed to do that too. I mean my pride hurt to admit it but I have no choice. "Natsu.." Lucy started. Natsu didn't even turned around. He was staring at Mira who was cooking for him. "I'm sorry Natsu, I'm .. I shouldn't be so pushy. I give you some space. But you have to know if there is anything you want to talk about. I will always listen." After that she walked away. He mumbled very silent "Thanks Luce." She did hear though because she turned around in shock. Erza turned around and smiled sadly. Natsu still didn't take a look at us. Lucy was relieved and cried a little. "Oi flame brain." "If you are going to bother me go away, I don't need it." I was left frozen again. "No man. I hate to admit it but I'm sorry." Everyone in the guild gasped. "I just realized when you flipped out at Lucy that we both had the same problem. So I stop bothering you and won't ask anymore. But you also have to know you can talk to me." He mumbled something but I didn't hear it. Erza certainly did because she had eyeballs as big as bowling balls. I looked at her like, what did he say. She only nodded no. I felt already irritated.

Natsu POV:
I was surprised not only Lucy but also Gray apologized to me. Wow must hurt his pride. But what bothered me is what he said. I won't bother you anymore. That is what I wanted right, but it felt like the only connection we have now is fading. I felt horrible so I mumbled. "You're the problem Gray". He luckily didn't hear me though. Erza did and her look said enough, like her eyes would come of it sockets. They were huge. I had tears in the corners of my eyes. Mira came eventually with a dish, I was trying my best to keep it inside. I just had to not look at them. Like that was even possible. After finishing my dinner, I was glad it did stay inside my stomach for once. Because I didn't want to jinx it I went home. Erza followed me when I left. For once I slept great. Few days passed by and I was getting better little by little. I could handle my food better. I couldn't watch them together though. I started to avoid them, on purpose. Every time I saw Gray I walked the other way. If I had to walk past him, I walked so fast he couldn't even say something. When he was with Juvia I would always suddenly eat, walk or go to the restroom for no reason. When I was alone, I silently cried every time I saw them together. Let me tell you that were quite a few times. I slept and eat better, I didn't puked in days. But the pain in my heart wouldn't go away. My broken heart didn't fix and I am certain it never would. I was like a dragon, we mate for life. So I guess I stay alone my whole life. Wow that sounds so dark. But it is the truth. I hope I will survive somehow. 

Suddenly gramps asked the team to come to his office. I forgot that Juvia joined, because I am simply minded. I couldn't avoid them there. I felt horrible, but I had to endure it. "Kids, I have a request for you guys specifically. It is a urgent mission which you have to leave for early tomorrow morning." After that I didn't hear anything anymore. Leave for a quest, I forgot I got mission to complete. Will I be able too, I'm still weak after my.. how do I call it. Episode? Something like that. I hear gramps say it is a mission that takes a week. Erza looks my way, a sad look in her eyes. "Master, is it alright if Natsu goes with us?" Everyone even I looked shocked at the question Erza asked. "What do you mean my child?" "He is still recovering master, he is not at his full strength." "I understand, but he has to go with you guys, they asked for him especially because of his fire." "I understand master." Fire I missed that point. Well I knew I had to go with a mission eventually. I hope it will go as smooth as always. But I probably am wrong about that.