My birthday is coming up on the 8th of April and I just wanted to say thank you and sorry.

Thank you, first of all for the 500 and 600 followers. When I first started this account I didn't realize or even think about the possibility that we would get this far, it just means so much to me. I started this account thinking that this was a chance for me to grow as a writer and a person. Looking back now, I can see how I have progressed and how each one of you have joined me on my quest. I have grown as a person and that is thanks to all of you that have supported me this far.

You've picked me up and made me better, all of you with your encouraging comments, actually intentional votes and heart-warming views. Without all of you I wouldn't be the person I am now, I might not have even been alive to say this. You've stuck with me through all of my stupidly long haituses and came back almost as soon as I update. I know I mostly post A/Ns these days but it's because I feel so comfortable with having you in my life and you will all have a place in my heart because you've changed my life in the most remarkable of ways. On the days when you don't feel good, or wanted, or even welcomed know that because you are involved in my life, everything about you is perfect to me. I want you around, I welcome you into my life with open arms and I love you all as much as a person can. It's stupid because I should start updating more but, for some reason I can't bring myself to write. It's becoming a task I feel I need to tackle because I'm overwhelmed with requests and I feel I'm taking too long which is making me drag my feet. God knows you all deserve a decent update so I'm beating myself up wondering why I can't provide. Either way I hope you don't give up on my lazy ass.

The second point of "sorry" is above with my 'thank you's. For anyone who may have thought I was going to give up on my account, I'm not. I can't I feel compelled to stay and write for you guys and it's not a bad thing!

But anyway thank you for sticking with me and sorry for not giving the updates you all deserve. A John x reader is almost complete!