I am so fucking done. My boyfriend decided to break up with me before. He said I was a fat ugly whore who needed to end her own life. He is moving to Spain and he knew just what I thought of myself. I feel so shitty and I'm staring to think my best option would to be to just give up on everything. it doesn't help today, in the streets I walked passed a group of 12-13 year olds and the laughed pointed at me and shouted "better get the harpoons ready, looks like a whale got stranded on land!" It has put me off food, cosplaying, everything I have ever felt comfort in becaus ei feel I do not deserve them. People are like "chubby girls are sexy" "I'd love a chubby girl" but that doesn't mean we enjoy being called chubby. At least I fucking dont. In the past I was like "yeah I'm chubby but I don't give a fuck!" Until I realised that my friends are all slim as hell and tall and beautiful and then there's me. The ugly fat girl no one likes or gives a single flying fuck about. Sorry for taking time out of your day if you bothered to read so far.