Saachi

I moved around feeling the needed warmth around me. Warmth means Yuvraj Ji. But no...

He can't leave me. My eyes opened immediately when I realized what could've gone wrong. I looked around to find myself in a dark room. Did I die as well? Is this what they call life after death? I felt the familiar warmth and scent around me. I felt arms wrapping around my waist. I looked back to find Yuvraj Ji asleep.

Nothing happened to him, right?

I caressed his jaw which was covered with a little beard.

"Sleep, love", I heard him as tears fall down my eyes. I thought I would never be able to hear his voice again. A sob escaped my lips as I touched his face to make sure he was for real.

"I am here only", He said keeping his hands on mine.

I kissed his whole face as my tears fall on his face.

"If this is what I get after getting a bullet then I would like to get shot every day", He joked as I cried hugging him.

"I can't live without you", I told him as he laughed.

"And you don't love me", He said as he wrapped his arms around me.

"Who told you that?", I asked him pulling away from him.

"I am asking you", He told me as he switched on the light from the side table. Was it a hospital room? Of course, he needs to rest.

"Asking what", I asked him.

"If you love me or not", He said looking into my eyes. I felt weird looking in his eyes.

"Yuvraj Ji, Please", I told him as he shook his head.

"Sleep, Saachi. I don't want to talk to you at this moment. Many things are going through my mind and I don't want to say something rude to you", He told me as he turned his back to me.

I wanted to stop him but couldn't. He wanted some time for himself and I couldn't deny him that. I sighed before lying back looking at his back. Do I Love him? I don't know.

I have never felt something like this for anyone but I can't give him false hopes. I closed my eyes wanting nothing but to sleep at this moment.

I found myself in complete darkness, not even a single source of light.

"Are you searching for light here", I heard a soft female voice. I have never heard this voice. It felt like somebody was singing. Her voice was soft like clouds for my ears.

"You have dreamt about someone your whole life", I heard her saying.

"How do you know?", I asked her trying to find the source of the melodious sound. I heard her laughing.

"I know more than you are ready to tell anyone", She said making me stop questioning her.

"You have prayed for that person's well being your whole life and now when he is beside you, you are hurting him again and again. I never expected this from you Saachi. You are disappointing me badly", She told me. I looked down feeling ashamed of myself.

"Saachi", I heard her again as I nodded.

"Get separated from Yuvraj", She told me making me gasp and shook my head.

"You would only end up hurting him. He deserves someone better who wouldn't disappoint him. Who would at least return back his feelings? You are being really selfish to the already broken soul. I thought you would be the perfect choice for him but...", She stopped.

"Am I being really selfish? I just don't want to hurt him by saying something I am not sure of. I have never felt like this before. I have no one to show me the right path", I told her.

"You were ready to die for him. Do you really have to ask this? You can't die for someone you felt nothing for. Also, he had always been everything you wanted in your husband. Always loving, caring, and supporting you ", She told me to which I nodded.

"Saachi my baby has gone through so much in life. I can't see him sad anymore. He never says anything it doesn't mean he does not have feelings. He never shares his feelings because he thinks they would make him weak but he is killing himself from inside keeping everything to him only. He never cried in front of everyone when we left him but it doesn't mean he never cried alone. I know he is a maze for you but, trust me sweetheart only you can solve this maze and reach to his heart. He had already shown you the path to reach him, you just have to follow it. Try to show your love like he does because I do trust you both. There is a reason why you both are together and you know this very well. Every single thing happens for a reason. If you both would stay together you would be able to cross every storm coming into your lives. Our blessings will always remain with you both", She said, and before I could react the darkness started changing into the light and I found myself on a dead end.

"Either choose to return back to your old life or choose to stay with Yuvraj", I heard the voice again.

I looked back to find my family there. Pitaji, Ma, Rudra, Dada Ji, Dadi Ma, and Kabir.

"It's not like you won't ever meet them but if you choose to go back you would get married to some other person who won't be Yuvraj", She said as I felt my heart shivering at the thought.

"But if you choose Yuvraj. You would have to mend his soul. You would have to invest your love, care, and time in him. You would have to be his support system no matter what. You won't ever be able to return back", She said.

"Listen to your heart, child", She said as I took a deep breath. It is really hard. I would be able to meet my family even if I decided to stay with Yuvraj Ji. I can never accept anyone else in my life.

I took a step ahead away from my family and felt myself falling from a mountain top. I closed my eyes. I am scared of heights. I don't know how did I do this.

"Bhabhi wake up. Bhabhi!", I heard somebody calling me as everything around me started fading away.

I sat up with a jolt.

"You okay", I heard Bhai. I looked to my side to find him looking worried. My whole body was drenched with sweat. I took a deep breath wiping my face with my hands.

Was it a dream? It felt so real.

"Bhabhi", He called me again. I nodded.

"We have to go home. Yuvraj has already left", He told me. I felt disappointed and upset knowing he left without him. Was he this irritated with me?

"I brought your clothes. Go get freshen up", Aarya said to which I nodded and moved towards the bathroom to get changed.

It's been two days since I spoke with him. He leaves early in the morning and returns back late at night. I told Aarya Bhai to give him his medicines but he is being stubborn. He is always busy with his work and this is being the reason for my sleepless nights at the moment. Even if I stay awake and wait for him to come back, he would ignore my existence.

He is hurting me knowingly. I never wanted to hurt him but ended up doing the same. He thinks it does not affect me but it is affecting me.

After serving lunch to Dadi Sa, I called Aarya Bhai again to know if Yuvraj Ji took his medicines on time or is still taking them whenever he wants.

"Ji Bhabhi", He responded from the other side.

"Bhai, You had food", I asked him.

"I am having a morsel in my mouth at this moment", He told me.

"Umm... What about Yuvraj Ji?", I asked him.

"He is being stupid. Working whole day without caring about food", He told me chewing on his food.

"What should we do Bhai? Whenever I try to talk to him, He just glares at me. I am scared of his anger. But couldn't let him play with his health", I told him.

"Why don't you come over? Tell him who is the boss? You get scared that's why he scares you. Show him attitude", He told me. And it seemed too unrealistic. Me being bossy. I have never done this before.

"What if he didn't like me being there?", I asked him.

"You are his wife. You have an equal right to his workplace. After all, you are the CEO's wife", He told me to which I hummed.

"Alright I'll be there", I told him and I sighed after hearing the other side was dead.

"Are you going there?", Dadi Sa asked me. I turned to her not knowing what to say. I should have asked her.

"He is not having his food and medicine on time", I told her.

"He had always been like this but now he is having someone to take care of him. Go and spend some time with him. I am going to have an important guest in a couple of hours so you can spend as much time as you want with him", She told me. I nodded taking my wallet and walk towards the exit.

"But stay with him only. The place is new for you", She said as I turned to her. I nodded as the chauffeur was already waiting out of the mansion.

Soon we reached his workplace. It was a tall glassy building. Many people were going inside and out of it. 

I called Aarya Bhai as he asked me to wait. I didn't know anyone here. It was so uncomfortable feeling everyone's eyes on me.

"Excuse me, Miss", I heard a male voice. I turned to find a tall man looking at me with a small smile.

"Yes", I asked him.

"If you don't mind me asking. Are you new here?", He asked. I nodded.

"Which department?", He asked.

"Excuse me"

"In which department are you working?", He asked me. Before I could answer him I heard Bhai.

"Bhabhi"

"Come on", He said as he glared at the man who gulped. He directed me towards the lift.

"He is really angry for the past few days. Everybody is scared to go near him", He told me as I gulped.

"I brought lunch for him. Would he shout at me?", I asked him. He shook his head looking ahead.

"No idea", He told me as I gasped.

"Do you want him to kill me? I am already scared of his angry and you are not helping as well", I mumbled as he laughed. I shook my head. How can he act like this?

The lift stopped on the top floor. I waited for the doors to open and came across a floor having white and blue walls. There were many windows providing it with good ventilation. There were few smaller cabins on the side and two larger cabins which I presume belongs to Bhai and Yuvraj Ji.

"Go to the left room", He told me as he walked to the right one. Shouldn't he accompany me there? I muttered a silent prayer before reaching that room. 

There was a Black Name Plate on the opaque door. 

Yuvraj Singh Rathore

-CEO

I traced my fingers on the white letters and took a deep breath. I knocked on the door. Nothing came from the other side.

I knocked again but again nothing. I felt worried so decided to go inside.

I gasped looking at the scene inside. Tears filled in my eyes.

I so wanted to slap him at this moment. 

What do you guys think?

And what about the dream? It was a random idea so don't kill me if you don't like it.

And to make you remember Saachi never confessed her love.

Till next time...