Teddy's POV

We all stayed the night at Paul's, John stayed close to Hilly and I stayed close to Paul. The night dragged on and I wasn't sure how I was going to fall asleep, as confusing as it is, I never know.

I tossed and turned a bit, Paul kept nudging me lightly and whispering "go to bed" I'd just say "I'll try" back and he'd chuckle.

Truthfully I was questioning Hilly, her quickness to anger took quite the toll on her, I'm the only person that can calm her down but I'm hoping John becomes one of those people too, I can't do it on my own as much as I used too. It just gets too frustrating.

Plus I wanted to start focusing on my music, I want to audition for a band but I also want to be solo. It all depends on how I feel toward both situations I suppose. I just want to have a sense of musical background in myself, Paul said he'd be willing to help me with it all. Which is something I would need.

I imagine what it's like to be famous, to have people line up to see you, buy your music, give interviews, be on tv shows. It all sounds so wonderful even if it comes with sore spots and hard work.

Hilly likes to convince me that there is no use in being famous, she says everyone is forgotten so there's no use trying. I think she just doesn't want to face the fact that I could leave her to be on tours or live in a different country. She doesn't want to lose me and I don't want a life without her. So she makes being famous sound dull.

But if I become somebody.

What am I to do?

Written by Hannah.