Goodbye, Summer. {Kyungsoo Fanfic} by Greyyy

"Summer is over... and so is our affair."

Do Kyungsoo {EXO} Fanfic.

Date Started & Finished: August 11, 2013

{A/N} Hi guys, so... I posted this fic in AFF few months ago so it is written in English. If there are mistakes and wrong grammars in this fic, I'm sorry, okay? 

WARNING: Super duper mega ultra fluffy story ahead. You might puke after reading. Lol~

P.S. Dedicated to Nie because Kyungie loves her so damn much~ 

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I’m so afraid to touch her hand. So afraid I might break when the time comes that I should let go. So afraid I might die without her soft hand in my palm. 

But not taking the risk is more painful. 

And so I did. I held her hand, erased all the thoughts I had in my mind a while ago. I pretended that I managed to stop the clock from running its two arms on numbers that we all call ‘time’. 

“Summer is over.” She said, “And so is our affair.” 

Calling it an ‘affair’ stabbed my already broken heart so many times. I can’t afford to call it that but what she said also makes sense—if it isn’t an affair… what else should we call it? 

“This may be forbidden, but it is still love.” I retort. 

***

“I don’t want to live like this forever. I don’t want to hide any longer. I—I don’t know how to live like this, Kyungsoo.” She spit out all the words. She cried like she’s taking not enough air causing her chest to rise and fall in an irregular manner. 

“I—” 

I tried to answer her but my throat is dry, unable to make any words or even sounds. I feel like I’ve been banned to speak. However, I have to reply. I have to at least make her feel at ease… even though at this moment I know that it isn’t possible. 

“I—I can teach you. W-We can live far away from here. Far away from them.” I decided to speak. 

Surprisingly, she laughed—a bitter laugh—a fake one. Still, her rosy cheeks are coated with tears and every god knows how I wanted to run my fingers on them, stroke them and kiss them. But I’m glued… here on the ground. I can’t walk. I can’t do anything towards her. I’m feeling weak.

“So your alternative is running?” She scrutinized me and as it grew longer I looked away. Unable to meet her gaze… unable to stand her prying eyes. “Do Kyungsoo, you’ve just proven how coward you are to me.” 

She turned her back. She walked away from me. I know I am supposed to run after her but I did nothing. I stand still. She’s right. I’m a coward. I’m selfish for taking her away from the one who loves her. I’m selfish for loving someone that I’m not allowed to love. 

She’s my bestfriend’s woman. She’s Kai’s woman. 

And someone also loves me. I’m Minah’s man. She’s the only one that matters in my life… not until Kai introduced me to her woman. Before, all I wanna do is kiss Minah all day and all night—but now, I’ve kissed those thoughts and memories goodbye. 

Now, I want to be Summer’s everything. I want to be the world to her. I want to be the one who’ll cook for her every morning she’ll wake up. I want to be the one showering her kisses and hugs. I want to be the one who she spends every Winter, Autumn, Spring and Summer. I want her to have the best of me. 

But like what I’ve said, we both have persons behind our backs. We both have special someone. We both have person who we chose to betray. 

***

I gathered all my courage and knocked on her door. I’m not expecting her to be pleased to see me in front of her door but I know I have to do this. I have to make her stay. I have to make sure she’s mine. I have to make sure she loves me. I have to know before I decide if this is going to end or not. Because honestly, I don’t have a plan to end this relationship. 

I heard her footsteps and all of a sudden her door slightly opened and I saw her puffy eyes. God, she’s still crying. I know she’s going to shove me away and so I pushed her door and went in before she can do anything to drive me off. I closed the door behind me without breaking our stares. 

“Look, Kyungsoo—I’m going home tomorrow. Kai called and I realized how guilty I am for doing this. I didn’t think very well before going with you. I didn’t think very well when I said I’m willing to leave Kai behind. I love—Kai needs me. He needs me and so his bestfriend which is you.” It’s fascinating how she can still manage to breathe in between her long sentences. But it’s more fascinating how she converted ‘I love’ to 'Kai needs’. It makes me wanna leap for joy. ”Kyungsoo we have to end whatever this game we are currently playing.” Game? Fvck, this is more than a game for me! “I have Kai and you have Minah, I came to realize that this isn’t going to work. We need to stop before we ran out of time to fix things we’ve destroyed.” She’s searching me with her eyes. She thinks I’m lost but no of course I am not. I’m listening, listening even if it hurts to hear those words from her, “Can you understand, Kyungsoo? Are you still with me because if—”

I realized she’s not going to stop blabbering so I brought my lips to her. I sealed her mouth with mine. I can’t speak. I can’t formulate sentences the way she did. I can’t think of some appropriate words to say. So I came up with this. I’m kissing her to make her feel what’s inside me… to make her feel what I can’t verbalize. Summer isn’t naïve. I know she can already feel me. I know she can already conclude that I’m not ready to let her go—that I will never let her go. She’s not in love with Kai, I know, I felt it, I saw it on her eyes. She’s in love with me, and I will never let her deny it in front of me. One of the proofs is this kiss. 

“We both have persons waiting for us,” I said between our kisses, “But may I ask, do you love Kai?” She didn’t answer. We’re kissing like there’s no tomorrow. I can’t tell if she’s just ignoring my question or if she’s drowning in my kisses. “I need an answer, Summer.” With that, I broke the kiss. 

She looked like a big part of her was gone when I broke the kiss, until she realized why I chose to stop. 

She encircled her arms on my neck and pulls me again for a kiss and in between she said, “I love you.” We continued the kiss. She decided to break it and asked, “Between Minah and I—” I already knew what she’s going to ask so I kissed her again as a form of my answer.

I don’t know how we managed to kiss for like how many minutes but I’m happy—beyond happy even. We both love each other and there’s no reason to stop. No reason to end this. No reason to go back to the persons we left behind. No reasons to end our summer together. 

“Tomorrow, we’re going home.” I told her as I stroke her cheeks. “I’m going to give Kai and Minah a reason to let us go.”

“Are you not afraid?” She asked. Worries overtook her face. 

“Not anymore.” I smiled at her, “Because I know you’ll stand beside me as I deliver my speech to them. Because I know you’re there to support me. You’re there to whisper dozens of ‘I love you’ to me. With those things, I will never know what’s the meaning of fear anymore.” I kissed her temple. 

“Then there’s no reason for me to be afraid too.” She replied. “Do Kyungsoo, sorry for calling you a coward a while ago. The truth is, I’m the true coward.” She bowed her head, “I can’t show my love for you. I’m afraid of getting caught—so afraid that I almost forgot how brave you are when you first told me you love me. I’m sorry—”

 I lifted her chin to be able for her eyes to meet mine. “I love you, and tomorrow we’ll be free. No more calling this relationship an affair or forbidden.”

“Affair, forbidden or whatever you call it—it is still love.” She said and she smiled. 

I wrapped my arms around her petite built and whispered, “So… what shall I cook for dinner?” She giggled and kissed my entire face. 

“You really know how to hit me with your cooking skills, Mr. Do.” She grinned.

fin. xx