Hola Mis Tortugitas ❤️

I've been thinking back lately and have been a little down. And I know some of you guys hate me because I didn't update I'm sorry :/But that's not a good excuse to stop writing ! I love you guys enough to push my feelings aside for a little bit. I can play emotional another time, my readers are waiting !

So enjoy the chapter Loves ^.^

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Selena~

Why wasn't he answering me ?? I had tried every way possible to get in touch with him. I didn't mean to sound thirsty but I was gonna be a month away from him and I wanted to at least talk. Feeling scared adrenaline pump through my blood; I opened my Kik again. This time I saw something that broke my heart.

S: Hunter ! :( | R✓

S: plz Kik me back !! R✓

{A/N For those of you who aren't hip. On Kik when it says "R✓" it means the person has read the message you sent them}

Why would he just ignore me ? It was our last day together for a month and he didn't even try to communicate with me. I felt a lump grow in my throat. "Selena calm down," I told myself, "Just call him one more time"

I unlocked my phone and dialed his number. I slowly slide it in between my neck and shoulder right on my ear.

Ring

Ring

The lump grew faster and faster in my throat. Tear started to invade my eyelids. Why do these things always happen ?

Ring

Ring

Ri-

"Hello ?" answered Hunter. My heart fluttered at his voice.

"Hunter ? Hey !" I nearly squealed.

"Hey Gonzalez"

"So where are you Hunter ? I've been tryna get a hold of you for a while."

"I know. You've been on your thirst trap all morning Gonzalez."

"Shut up ! You're such a smart ass"

"The smart ass you're dating remember ?"

"Yeah. Yeah. By force"

"Ooh yeah ? And who forced you to go out with me ?"

My cheeks burned a little. "Your kisses did. They were forcing me to say yes "

"Hmm. You know you can't resist Daddy !"

"As if I'd every call you Da-"

"HUNTER !! Come back to the room, I need you !" yelled a feminine voice in the background; her voice demanding yet sexy. Why did a girl need Hunter in "The Room"

My voice now scraggly and helpless.

"Hu-Hunter, who was that ?"

"Oh shi- ! Nobody ! Nobody !"

It was nobody ?!? Anger rushed through my body but I composed myself .

"That sure as hell doesn't sound like 'Nobody' ."

"Gonzalez, look. I promise you it's nobody. It's just me and-umm- a friend doing something okay ?"

"Really Hunter ?!?! On our last day together for a month ! You're just throwing me away like some old toy ?"

"NO !! Selena look it's just Lizzie" his voice now sounding annoyed; like I'd done something.

"Why are you getting angry ? I should be the one angry ?? Who was that ?"

"Oh my gosh Selena ! That was Lizzie I'm telling you !!! Gosh, always so thirsty to know things"

Now my vains were popping out and my voice was getting louder.

"Excuse me ?!? I'm being thirsty for wondering about my boyfriend ?!?"

"Look Selena. I'm gonna say this once; calm down, it was nobody, and I'm just here doing my thing."

"Oh okay ! I'm just gonna sit here and act like nothing happened right not now, right ? Oh yeah because Selena's the bitch in this relationship !"

"What the hell is that supposed to mean ?! Last time I checked I was blowing up my phone trying to get a hold of me ? Jesus Selena, calm the fuck down. You're being a real bitch."

The word bitch echoed through my mind. Memories started to flood through the back of my childhood.

~~Flashback~~

"Did I tell you to chime in Selena ?!?" he screamed as he slammed his fists on the table.

Meldin clutched onto my sleeves; hiding behind me as softly crying to himself. I was about 11 at the time while he was about 6. I'd just turned 11 and he was drunk yelling at my brother and I about his problems.

He was my Mom's fiancé and my mom never knew he was drunkard.

I hated him.

At first when he waltzed into our lives; he was the absolute best. He'd always come home with presents and spoil us with love. I truly did look up to him.

That was until he lost his job.

He used to be a Professional Buyer For The United States Army. But he then laid off because budget cuts. It'd taken him months to find another job. I remember when I used to wake up at nights for a drink of water he'd be just hovering over the computer; itching for another job.

Sooner or later he just gave up. He started to receive government checks and took them for granted. He'd always spend them on beers and other alcoholic drinks. "Just one beer Selena" turned into "Hand me the God damn cooler !" His cool and calm nature slowly turned into violent and furious. Meldin's bruises are still on his bodies. I'd always lie and say some corny excuses for him; and they all believe us. I used to try and find every way possible to avoid coming home to him with poor helpless Meldin. My mom used to stay at work late everyday so we'd stay with him everyday.

"Aww what's wrong Meldin ? You can't defend yourself like a little pussy you are ?!?" he stumbled out to insult. Now today he was pissy drunk. He was at the top of his meter; he'd spent 1 hours yelling and arguing with the Welfare call lady because they were gonna cut money from his check. When the sentence was final he went on a full rampage.

He broke Mom's chinas, family photos, awards, shit he even broke the TV. I walked over to him from my old bedroom and tried to comfort him. It only made him 100x madder.

"GET AWAY FROM ME !!" he screamed shoving me away from him; making me fall on my butt.

"It's all your DAMN FAULT !!" his British accent only made him scarier. It was deep and threatening; like he was some kinda gang leader. "You and your shithead MOTHER !! If it weren't for you two I'd still have my JOB !"

"Se-Selena. I-I want Mo-Mommy." whimpered Meldin quietly.

{A/N Meldin had a speech impediment problem; he had stuttering. I wanted to add that he grew out of it but I didn't know where. Just a little heads up.}

His face lit up in utter surprise, "Oh so you want your Mom don't you Meldin ?? Cry ! Cry on !!" Meldin's cries quickly turned into bawls and screams.

He started laughing, he was laughing hysterically at Meldin's pain. He was clutching his stomach in pain of how much he was laughing. He was possessed by thousands of demons in my eyes. He took pleasure in my little brother's pain.

"Stop laughing asshole !!" I yelped out at him. He'd stopped and just stared at me; his deep golden eyes drill holes of pain into my heart.

That's when I knew I'd fucked up

Badly

He squeezed my arms as he lifted my up; having us face to face looking each other in the eyes. Pain in my arms started to pin into me, causing me to cry out in pain. He just stared harder at me.

"Tell your sister to stay outta my business MELDIN !" he hollered at him. Meldin just slowly just kneeled down and crouch; bathing in his own tears.

"Now for you Selena." he spat bitterly, "Time for you to mind your business ! You're a useless bitch and you're never gonna be loved by anyone !" He stuck his hand out and swung it back. The full force of his back hand came across the side of my face. I felt my cheek burn in throbbing pain. Tears flowed down my face as I just hung my head in emotional and physical distress. "What now ?!?! Speak now Selena !!"

I cocked my foot out and full on Lionel Messi kick to his balls; I'm still kinda surprised why I chose swimming instead of soccer. I'm actually pretty good at it.

Without hesitation, he dropped me on the ground as he held his delicates in pure pain.

Ignoring the pain I grabbed Meldin and tried to run away but grabbed Meldin's foot.

He took out a pocket knife outta his pocket. "I hate you kids" he huffed out throwing his hands back.

"NOOOOO !!!" I cried out trying to stop him. But then a sound of spray blasted out in the midst of the drama. He bawled out in a suffering manor. I looked up to see my mom with a can of mace. "Stay the hell away from my kids, Davis" She swiftly grabbed the both of us and ran out of the house.

Later she'd gotten a restraining order against him and got him locked up for abuse. I heard he also went I rehab and went back to England or Scotland (wherever the hell he was from).

The look he gave me still stays implanted in my brain. His dark eyes only gave you shivers and apprehension. Davis was his name. Every time I hear his name I just get emotional. He's the reason Meldin and I've had walls built around ourselves. We had to both take therapy for emotional and mental problems.

And I needed a therapist for my cutting problems.

Davis always called me fat and told me I'd never have love in my life. I can't believe I believed him. I started cutting at age 14 and ended at 16. I did it for my own sake; but especially for Meldin's sake. He'd always rub my cuts and ask what happened. I'd always tell him it was "Boo-Boos From My Emotions" One day he caught me in my bathroom cutting with a kitchen knife. He grabbed my arm and told me, "Every boo-boo deserved a kiss to feel better" He sat there in the bathroom and kissed all my "boo-boos" better. At that time he had no idea of what it really was, he was young and oblivious of all that was happening. It took a while but I never cut again. The scars gradually went away and it was all in the past.

But all the pain is still there. Underneath my skin used to be one happy oblivious innocent girl who just loved life itself. But over the years it started to turn over and it all turned to aggression and tears.

~~Flashback End~~

"I'm hanging up now Hunter" my voice scraggly trailed on.

"No. N-. C'mon Selena, look I'm so-"

"Goodbye Hunter."

"Selena wa-"

"GOOD. BYE."

"Se-"

I slammed my finger on the end call button. I was just some toy that was now useless to him.

I was a useless bitch.

I don't know what to think. Is this all just some mix up ? I rubbed my temples in anxiety. "I need some Aleve. This is too much." I told myself. I needed to get away from everything.

Tear streaming down my face as I push my bedroom door open heading towards the kitchen. I grabbed a bottle of water and popped the two Aleves in my mouth and slowly swallowed them down.

From the corner of my eye I saw Meldin hesitantly creep from around the corner with a enraged expression.

"What's wrong Me-Man ?" I asked a little worried. He just stood there in the kitchen doorway; fist balled up.

"Did he take it back?" he said expressing every syllable.

Holy shit ! Was I really yelling that loud at Hunter ? I mean, I never really realized how tiny this apartment was...

"We're you listening to my conve-"

"Did. He. Take. It. Back ?" his voice now cold and bitter. What the hell crawled up his ass.

"No. And I hope his player self stays happy with that girl !" I grunted. Ugh I just need to get on that plane and just relax because I have a lot of planning to do.

"That ride can be arranged Selena." perked up Meldin's voice. I glance over at him in confusion. Did I say that outloud ? What the heck was wrong with me ?

"A lot of things are wrong with you Selena. And yeah, you're talking out loud." slightly laughed (yet still being serious) Meldin. He was leaning against the doorway with his arms crossed.

I walked over and hugged him. I rested my head on top of his. He was only 14 and he didn't deserve any of this. I just hope he'll have a happy future.

"I'm gonna go tell Mom about the 'little ride' idea. Okay Sely ?" he asked. I just nodded my head and went back into my room.

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Hunter~~

I shut off my car and ran my hands through my hair.

I fucked up big time.

I grabbed the white and red roses it'd bought and shut the door.

I know she was hurt by the way she hung up on me. I even bought her some Hershey's Cookie n Creme candy bars. I didn't mean to insult her. I was being an asshole.

I walked up the complex steps. I don't know how many times I've come back to Selena and apologized. I was the problem in this relationship.It was already 1:30 pm and I was tired and stressed.

I turned the corner and that the Gonzalez household had a note on door. I dropped the roses and candy and sprinted to the car.

The note said,

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| Dear Friends & Family, |

|. The Gonzalez family has |

| Gone off to a trip for a month |

| We left at about 9:30 this |

| morning on 11/25/13. |

| We sadly have no contact # |

| During this trip so leave. |

| Messages. God Bless, |

| The Gonzalez Family |

|______________________ |

I quickly dialed Selena's number on my phone. My heart was racing; why did they leave in the morning when they were supposed to leave at night ??

"Hello ?" she answered

"Oh thank God ! Gonzalez where are you ??"

"Why does it matter to you ?"

She's still mad at me ? I called and called over and over but she never responded, I even left voicemails.

"Because you're my girlfriend and I love you."

"Goodbye Hunter"

"Wait ! Selena please ! I need I see you !"

"Oh now you wanna see me ?! Your little- *sighs* Look Hunter, I'm not for it today."

"Come on ! Just tell me where you are !!"

"Hunter I'm - HEY !! *ruffle* Gimme my phone ba- !"

What happened ?! The line was breaking up !!

"Hello ?!?!" I called out in desperation.

"Hunter." a voice said. It was masculine, it sounded familiar.

"Meldin ?"

"Yeah, it's me"

"Oh dude don't scare me like tha-"

"Look here you selfish underrated low life prick !" He shouted. My head stretched back in confusion; what the hell is he bitchy for ?

"You keep your ass away from Selena !!! We're on the plane that's getting ready to take off. I'm not gonna sit here and see my sister having asthma and anxiety attacks because of your bullshit !"

"Wait dude. What the he-"

Before I could finish the line cut off. That was the last time I was gonna see or talk to Selena in a month.

And I screwed it up oh so badly.

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A/N

Hola Mis Tortugitas !! I'm so sorry for this long chapter ;( But I didn't update in like 2 weeks so I decide to write a little more on this chapter. But now I have a proposal:

Since I wrote this looooooong chapter, I'll write the next one if I get at least +5 votes on this chapter.

It's not gonna be like that from now on. Oh no-no-no !! Just for today Loves ^.^ So you know what to do:

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