19-6-20

I always wondered what it would be like to be loved by someone. Always yearning to be close to anyone...close to the one. I always wanted something I knew I never would have...

Summers are always so lonely for me. I never understood the feeling. It's like there is something missing, something that was forgotten from a past time...something that made me feel whole. But problem with that is, I have forgotten what it was. What would make me feel whole again.

Well, I'll go to bed now...I should try to sleep.

Missing something that I lost

-Akira

22-6-20

What is this? I acted for another movie again today, the film is almost completed and ready to go to editing. So, I should be able to get a break soon. I hate the summers because I never get to see any of my friends, because I live at the studio where I act...and I can't really get away. I at least get a whole apartment to myself so that's nice, but it's still so controlling. My parents are not here at the moment, not that they are dead or anything they are just always traveling so they forgotten about me at this point. But I'm 18 years old now, so I should be able to make my own choices anyway...I don't have any problems with money, it's just the problem with feeling like I belong anywhere. Because I'm lying all the time and no one knows who I really am...not that it's easy to, but god people are the worst.

Sora

24-6-20

I wrote poetry all day today and Shinobu was worried about me because I hadn't left my room all day. I told him I just wasn't feeling like talking to other people...I could tell he knew I was lying, but he didn't push it. I'm so lucky that he and Mizumiki were so willing to take me in. My parents keep trying to get involved in my life again...but it's only because I have a lot of money now for my writing...I absolutely hate it...it just makes me feel like I'm back being their puppet all over again.

-Akira

30-6-20

Trying something new today! My friend invited me to come to the beach tomorrow night for a party! I'm hoping it's a good party not like the last one I went to...there are going to be other famous people there, so I should fit right in right? Sometimes I forget how popular I am until I look at the media and my socials. Even if they reach out to me I still feel so gross. They are all fakes and fans who know nothing about me other than my acting skills.

I'm looking forward to getting out of the apartment for the first time in a while. I mean Jesus Christ...all of the maids and waiters make me feel all proper and shit...I just want to mess around every once and awhile.

Sora

30-6-20

Shino and Mizu are both dragging me out of the house tomorrow to go to a party that I was invited to by one of the other teenage authors I know from my publisher...I don't really want to go, but I guess I could learn something new. So, it shouldn't be so bad...I mean Shino and Mizu should be able to come with me because I can bring up to three guests with me from what the invitation said anyway. I still feel nervous about it, but I shouldn't let it bother me too much.

Goodnight.

-Akira

Akira shut off her lamp letting the room become darker as the faint shade of the streetlights were faint through her curtains. She took a while to be able to fall asleep, but eventually let herself fall asleep against her black sheets.

Her long black hair was down and splayed out on the pillow behind her. She was wearing her pajamas which consisted of her leggings with her oversized sweater that always seemed to fall off her shoulder on the right side. She hated wearing these kinds of clothes around others because of the way it made her neck feel so exposed. She would usually wear turtlenecks even in the hotter temperatures. Being a writer she stays indoors most days anyway where there is air conditioning so it doesn't bother her.

The night faded into the background noise of the chirping sounds of the insects outside as well as the sounds of the few cars that drove by. There was a fan in the window making her curtain blow in front of it. Akira didn't like having to move the curtain because she always forgot to move it back into place in the morning. So, sometimes she would get creeps staring at her through the window, well, that was before Shinobu and Mizumiki moved her into their room that faced the beach instead of the apartment next to them..

...

"Akira," Shinobu said gently coming into her room. Her face was buried into her pillow as her arms were wrapped around it. Hair all over her face and pillow as he gently brushed it away from her face and gently kissed her forehead.

"It's time to wake up," He paused, moving to sit on the edge of her bed. She didn't move at all and just kept gently snoring into her pillow. Shinobu sighed gently and moved his hand to rub her back.

"Mizu already has breakfast ready downstairs," He said before she finally started to stir. She slowly step and held a hand to her forehead before she looked up at him.

"Shino?" She asked, feeling disoriented from just waking up. Shinobu smiled at her and gently pat her on the head before he stood up.

"I didn't want to stress you out with setting an alarm so I came to wake you up," He said. She moved her hair out of her eyes and looked over to the clock.

"T-thank you f-for that," She said before he gave her a brief nod. She heard the door open and close as he left her alone in her room.

"B-best to g-get dressed," She said slowly getting out of her bed. Her legs were shaking from waking up and because of her just being a little more clumsy, especially when she wakes up. She slowly moved over to her closet and yawned. She stretched out her back making her hair fall back in front of her right eye. She sighed to herself before grabbing her clothes.

She wore a grey sleeveless turtleneck with a light black and white jacket what went down to her lower thigh. The jacket was open exposing the turtleneck that was tucked into her shorts that had leggings underneath. They had mesh on the bottom that went up the side of her legs while she had her combat boots on her feet. It wasn't really what Shino or Mizu called a summer outfit, but they both understood why she was so self conscious about her body, more specifically her scars.

They were on her forearms and trailed all around them, her chest, her neck, hands, upper arms, thighs, back, and her legs. She hated having to show them to others because of the looks of pity she would get, so she preferred to just feel hot all the time rather than having to feel exposed.

After getting changed she walked out of her room and put her hair up in the hallway as well as applying some dark makeup around her eyes in the bathroom. She walked down the stairs to smell some tasty food for breakfast. There was some eggs and pancakes on the counter while Shino and Mizu were already eating at the table.

"Akira!" Mizu exclaimed, getting out of his seat to pull Akira into a hug. Shino sighed from behind him as she hesitantly wrapped her arms around him.

"Mizu," She said gently before he pulled away and gently kissed her on the forehead.

"Are you feeling a bit better today, I know you had a headache yesterday," He said, moving his hand to hold against her forehead. She blushed a bit at his words because she still wasn't used to having people be genuinely concerned about her without getting something in return.

"A-ah, y-yes." She paused, gulping nervously. "T-thank you," She said with a small bow before Mizu smiled and held her shoulders.

"No need to be so formal! Anything for you," He said with a smile before letting his hands leave her shoulders. She took this as a sign that it was time for her to get some food. She walked over to the counter and got some of the food on her plate before going back to the table.

1-7-20

Mizu is always so kind to me as well as Shino. I never really understood this. I always thought I was just the other person living with them because of the whole thing that happened with my parents. But I can't say I don't like it. It's nice having some people to support me instead of being the only one doing so.

1-7-20

My friend called me this morning to make sure I was going to make it to the party, because sometimes I have things come up making it so I have to cancel. So this time I am making sure that nothing will make me have to bail out this time...because honestly I need this.

Sora had already gotten dressed in her sundress. It was a light pink with small black and white flowers scattered around it. There were more flowers towards the top and bottom of the dress making it look more like an hourglass in a way. There were thick strap sleeves that were black as well as a bow that tied in the back. She wore tights as well as her slip on black shoes. She put her hair up into a ponytail and tied a similar looking bow in her hair to complete the look.

"Okay, the party is starting in 2 hours...so is there anything I need to get done before then?" She asked herself as she heard her phone chime from the side of her bed.

"Who could it be?" She asked, moving over to grab her phone. It was her friend and she sent her a photo. It was a girl in a black button up shirt with a lace jacket around her shoulders. The photo was in the back cover of a book that her friend had mentioned before.

Sora: Who is this?

???: This is the author of the book I just finished called 'all the words left unsaid' it's by Akira Yumeno! She is kinda cute isn't she?

Sora: Yeah, she is...but why are you telling me this?

???: I heard from somewhere that she was going to be at the party! I'm so pumped to meet her! I love her writing!

Sora: Oh? I didn't know that! Maybe I'll go with you to meet her!

???: You better! ;)

She smiled and closed her phone. "Akira Yumeno, I wonder who she could be?" She asked herself before she walked over to her computer to look into more information about the young author.

...

1-7-20

I just got done getting ready for the party...and we are leaving now. I hate to admit it but I really don't want to go...I feel so nervous. Are they even going to like me?

"Akira! Are you coming?" Shino yelled from the bottom on the stairs. She flinched a bit from the loud sound but turned around and yelled back, "Yeah sorry! I-I'll be r-right d-down!"

She shut her diary and placed it in her secret place on her shelf before rushing down the stairs. She was wearing a black jumper with a button up shirt. She had heels on and wasn't wearing the leggings she had on before...It didn't cover a lot of her neck or her arms or even her legs...but she grabbed her jacket as well to try to hide more, but still felt really nervous.

"You ready?" Mizu asked as she got down the stairs. They were both wearing their swimming suits with a button up shirt over their chests. She had her swimsuit on as well, but wasn't planning on going swimming so she wore the jumper...but they insisted that she wore her swimsuit just in case.

"Y-yeah," She said looking down at her phone nervously. She had one message from her friend as well as tons of notifications from her social media. She closed her phone and placed it in her pocket with her wallet and chapstick before moving over to the car.

Shino and Mizu took their seats in the front as Akira took her spot in the back. She felt super nervous and was holding her hands together to try to stop the shaking.

"It's going to be alright Akira," Shino said as Mizu started the car. Akira gave him a shaky nod before they were on their way to the beach.

...

"Where do you think she could be?" Her friend asked as Sora scanned the beach another time trying to find Akira. But there was no Akira in sight. Her friend was already in her bikini while Sora still had her dress on. There was pop music playing in the background as laughter was all around them.

"I have no clue honestly," Sora said with a frown worried she wasn't going to come. That was before another car pulled up and a male and female exited the car. The female had long black hair while the male had short brown hair. The female was pale while the male was tanner as well built.

"That's her!" Her friend said with a smile. Sora smiled as well and started walking over to them with her friend by her side. Akira was wearing a black button up jumper with a jacket over her shoulders while the male standing next to her was wearing swim trunks with a button up short sleeve shirt.

"Akira! I have been wanting to meet you for so long!" Her friend shouted as Akira jumped a bit with a bigger blush on her face. Her friend held out a hand to her waiting for Akira to shake it.

"Ah, h-hello," She said gently, taking her hand and shaking it before doing the same with Sora. Sore blushed at the touch and felt her heart skip a beat, 'what was that?' she thought to herself as she felt awestruck.

"I read your books and they are amazing and super inspiring!" She said with a smile. Akira blushed again and looked to the side for a moment.

"I'm g-glad!" She said with a smile before her friend shook her hand. "Well nice to meet you!" She said before patting Sora on the shoulder.

"Good luck," She said with a smirk before leaving the two of them alone. Akira looked up at Sora and felt her eyes get mesmerized as she looked into her eyes. Sora felt the same way, but broke eye contact after a moment feeling like she was being rude by staring.

"I heard about you from my friend," She said gently rubbing her neck awkwardly. Akira went to say something before someone bumped into her causing her to fall onto Sora. Sora tried to catch them, but only ended up falling to the ground with Akira landing on her chest.

"S-sorry!" Akira gasped trying to get up only causing herself to fall again. Sora gently moved her arms around her waist before putting her hand to her lips.

"It's okay, it wasn't your fault," She said before helping her get back up to her feet. She could tell she was shaking and felt a little guilty about it.

"Are you alright?" She asked looking into her eyes. Akira blushed and looked to the side.

"Y-yeah, sor-" She started only to be cut off by Sora.

"Don't apologize it wasn't your fault." She said with a small laugh. "Here, if you want to make it up to me, then why don't you owe me a dance?" She asked with a teasing smirk. Akira blushed more and went to cover her face with her hands before she heard the music change from some song to 'HomeTown Smile'

"I-I know this song," Akira said with a smile. Sora blushed at how cute she was being before Akira seemed to become more comfortable as she took Sora's hand.

"Let's dance!" She said with a smile.

"Alright!" Sora yelled back because of the volume of the crowd of people around them. Akira placed Sora's hands on her hips as she placed her hands on her shoulders.

Akira gently swayed to the music and led Sora around to the beat. They danced for hours it seemed, but every moment they were together they both swore that sparks flew across the stars. Telling them that this summer, their summer, would be endless.

-Here is a new story Idea I had! Called Endless Summer! We all love those summer memories with friends and want to relive them every summer to come. So join me in this journey through an endless summer!-

-Saichi Kohana-