"Han, we didn't loss the baby, right?"

Silence, Luhan just stares at her, he barely feels his heartbeat because of this shock. His lips numb, causing him to loss all his words. The good thing comes to him because she finally remembers, she gets back her memories. But then the good was followed by the bad ones. The sad memories come along and they attack her without mercy.

Actually, she is still confused about herself. She is not sure about herself. The memories just come and all attack her at once. She awares, she remembers anything but she feels like she miss something. She remembers about the accident but she doesn't know why she was here, all fine.

"Han" She calls his name gently but it fulls of sadness. Slowly she looks down to her tummy and strokes it. It turns flat once again, no baby bump anymore.

"Hey" She talks to her tummy. Firstly, she acts calmly like nothing happened, but right after she says her sorry to the baby, tears start streaming down her face.

"Xian" He whispers her name, feeling all the pain that breaks him into pieces. Softly, he touches her hand, holding it tight. But she flinches, looking at him with her blank stare. Her eyes have no light, they are in a pitch black.

"It's my fault, right?" She asks him with her cracking voice.

"No" He immediately talks but she sobs harder this time.

"All is my fault" She screams out loud, looking so depressed. Luhan just pulls her into his embrace without saying a thing, stroking her hair softly to comfort her. He keeps convincing her if it wasn't her fault.

"It's my fault" That's the only thing comes out from her lips. This situation is really far from what he thought. He thought she will blame at him, mad at him, and leave him alone. But this is the opposite, she keeps blaming on herself, she looks so broke and lost. Now what should he do? He really is scared, what if he couldn't help her to recover from this heart break?

***

She looks so tired. Her eyes closed and she sleeps soundly on his embrace. Softly Luhan pushes her bangs aside and caresses her cheek softly. He feels so worry about her because she said nothing but "It's my fault". What if she kept blaming herself for the rest of her life? It makes him scared.

"It's not your fault baby" He whispers as he places a kiss on her forehead.

Now he thinks about her. It's easier if she was blaming at him, he could try to gain her trust back, he could be a better man to her. But now, she's blaming at herself, noone could safe her except her own self. This is hard, he has no idea what should he do to make her safe herself from this. All he could do is stay beside her, helping her to trust herself once again.

"Let's go through this together, I promise I will stay with you, I promise I won't hurt you anymore" He says his promise, feeling sorry because she needs to experience this. He knows, if he treated her well, all of this didn't need to happen. He want to compensate everything.

***

Luhan feels so empty right now. He doesn't know why these things happen in his life, why must him? Lixian is up already, but she refuses to talk. No words come out from her lips. She just sits on the bed, staring blankly at spaces with her empty gaze. She is alive but her soul is somewhere else. She is lifeless.

It's not just for one day or two, she keeps going like that, refusing to eat and drink. Luhan needs to force her to eat or else she will never eat. This is frustrating for Luhan, he keeps calling the doctor to come, just to give her a vitamin injection. After days pass, he asks the doctor to infuse her.

"Lixian" He sits on the edge of the bed as he holds her hand.

"Please" He looks into her eyes but they're empty. He feels so worry about her but he couldn't do a thing. No words leave her lips eventhough it's already five days. No food gets in to her body and it causes her losing weights.

"You can't live like this" He talks softly, his eyes start teary, sad because she acts like this.

"Xian, I'm begging you" He raises his tone and he starts breathing heavily.

"Talk to me babe" He lowers his tone again, pleading with his eyes.

"Blame on me, yell at me, hit me, slap me, do whatever you want, but please, say something" He pleads to her, his voice cracks, showing the pain inside his heart.

"Xian" He whispers. Eyes look at hers, staring deeply just to find any sign of light. When he finds nothing, he starts crying.

The sound of him crying, gives an impact to her. Slowly she turns her face to see him and right there, she feels a deep pain, his tears keep flowing, giving her a realization. It's not only her who feels the pain, he feels it too. All this time, she always feels like she is the only victim, she is the only one who suffers, but she is not the only one. Luhan is the victim too, he suffers more than she did. She now feels sorry.

"Han" She calls his name and immediately he stops crying. He stares at her as he squishes her hand softly.

"My heart hurts" She confesses as she holds his hand back. Luhan just stares at her, his heart hurts when he sees her in pain. He softly strokes the back of her hand with his thumb, showing her that he cares.

"Come here honey" He whispers he wraps his arms around her body, giving her a warm hug. There, she cries really loud, pouring every single pain to her tears.

It feels so hard to go through this tough life. She really prepared to become a mother, she finally knew how it feels to love someone purely eventhough she never met her/ him before. She really waited for the baby, imagining their baby grows and someday she/ he will run around the house with her/ his tiny feet. But now, it turns into sadness everytime she thinks about that.

"Lixian, do you trust me?" Suddenly he asks, his voice is gentle and warm. Somehow it gives her comfort.

"Xian?" He asks.

She looks up at him and meets his eyes. It's sure hit her hard, but all this time, she forgets about him. She could share this hardness with him, she just stupidly ignores him and his presence.

"Do you trust me?" He repeats and slowly she nods at him, her hands grip tight on his arms.

"Listen, let's go through this together, I will always be with you, you're not alone babe, I'm here with you, I'm so sorry for all the heart break I caused, Xian, I promise you, I will help you to heal this scars" He says.

Lixian stares deep into his eyes, she sees sincerity there and she knows he's being true right now. This brings back the memories when Luhan ignored her, treated her like she was invisible, and now he is back to her. Thinking about that time, makes her crying softly on his chest.

"I'm so sorry" He whispers softly as he places a kiss on her head. He learns that people needs to lose something for gaining more. He hopes this loss will lead them into a great gain in the future. He feels so blessed because Lixian wants to open up her heart to him and trust him once again.

***

Two years later, in the end of year 2018, Lixian wakes up in the morning and Luhan, her husband already missing. Yes, they finally get married in early 2017 and moved back to Beijing. Luhan's father passed his throne to Luhan, he retired and gave Luhan the CEO title.

"It's saturday" She starts whining and hits the empty space beside her.

"You still go to office?" She does the monologue and frowns to herself. But then she smiles widely and strokes her tummy softly.

"Hi, baby" She giggles, feeling so happy because finally she can let go the past to start something new.

In their newly wed life, Lixian refused to have a child, saying she wasn't ready to carry one. Luhan did as she wished, he always used protection, and did it carefully. He was so patient eventhough he really wanted one. This really fluttered her heart.

Then, one day she woke up in the morning, feeling all the sadness and the pressure from the past gone away, right after that, she realized, she already moved on from her past and ready to start a new life. Start from that day, they never used any protection because they expected a child.

"Your daddy still have no idea" She talks and chuckles. She also just found out yesterday, she got a lab test because she got no period and positive. She's pregnant now.

"Should we tell him now?!" She asks excitedly as she gets off from the bed. She really can't wait to tell him, she really can't wait to share this happiness with him.

***

"Good morning Mrs. Lu" The security immediately greets her and opens the door for her. She walks out from the car and smiles to the security.

Everytime she hears 'Mrs. Lu' leaving anybody's lips, she feels so happy and her heart flutters. She is proud to be Luhan's Mrs. Lu, she is proud to be the one whom he loves. But before she could reach the lift, she sees Luhan coming out from it.

"Xian" He smiles immediately but he looks surprised.

"What are you doing here?" He asks as he hugs her waist, pulling her closer protectively.

"I thought you will wake up really late today" He whispers to her with his husky voice. Lixian just giggles because she knows what he means.

"I thought I knocked you out last night" He smirks at her and she hits his chest playfully.

"Ssst, pervert" Lixian talks and smiles softly at him.

"Why did you come to office? It's saturday" She whines and pouts cutely at him.

"I need to sign papers, now it's done, smile please" He smiles at her and pecks her lips. This immediately makes her giggling.

"I'm smiling for you now" She smiles prettily at him. Watching her smile like that, he feels so happy and blessed.

"Ah, Han, I want you to meet someone" She suddenly smiles really wide and this makes Luhan raising his brow.

"Who?" He asks but without saying a thing, she takes his free hand and places it on her tummy.

"Our baby" She giggles and Luhan bulges his eyes playfully, he really can't hide his happiness.

"I'm pregnant" She talks. Luhan closes his eyes cutely and chuckles.

"Oh my God" He raises his tone in excitement and pulls her into his embrace.

"Really? We will become parents?" He asks and she just nods her head.

"Thank you" He smiles at her as he cups her face. Slowly he leans closer and pecks her lips continuously, making the noise with his lips, totally doesn't care about people watching them.

"Han, this is embarrassing" Lixian scolds him softly but it actually feels really good to get his affection infront of the public.

"I don't care, this is my company" He giggles and place a gentle kiss on her lips. He softly moves his lips on her, sharing a passionate kiss with Lixian.

"I promise you honey, I will protect you and our baby, at all cost" He talks after they broke the kiss.

They smile to each other, totally in their own world. Their gaze and their gesture, are full of love. Their love grows widely inside their heart, through the happiness, they develop their love, through the hardship, they strengthen their love. Maybe they started of with hate, but with time, hate will turn into love. In the end, love will always win, all because love is stronger than hate. So believe in love and you will find your happy ending.

END

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Note: Thank you for reading my story, I know maybe this is short and a little bit disappointing, but I hope you enjoy this. I don't know when will I write a new story, but please everybody, be happy and until we meet again ^^