"Who are you?"

Nothing, his mind goes blank after he heard her question. His only one love, Lixian, she couldn't recognize him. Without even asking, he already knows what happened to her. All is too obvious and this makes him weak. His heart couldn't take this.

"Hey, it's me" Luhan talks in his cracking voice, hoping she will get back what she lost.

"Who? You know me?" She asks. Her voice is still sweet as always, but her gaze isn't warm anymore, her gaze is more confused.

"I know you----" He pauses and stares deep into her eyes, but all he got is pain.

"You're Lixian" He continues as he takes her hand, trying to hold it but she avoids it.

"Who are you? What relationship we have?" She raises her tone, feeling frustrated because nothing she could remember. She starts to breath heavily because she feels so lost. Trying so hard to remember a thing but there is just a pitch black.

"We---" He chokes, doesn't know what to say. He doesn't know what relationship they have right now, are they still lover? Or maybe just a stranger with million memories?

"What happened to me? Why can't I remember even a single thing?" She then starts yelling, tears brimming on her eyes, ready to fall anytime.

"Why can't I remember about myself?" She continues, tears start flowing down her face, because she feels scared about this whole strange world. She then turns her face to Luhan, hoping she will get any answer or clue, but she just lost once again on his eyes. It's strange for her, but she feels like she's home.

***

Luhan sits in silence, staring into a sleeping Lixian. Lixian lost her memories, that was what the doctor said. He doesn't know what to feel, he feels empty right now. The memories that they shared together before, now shattered into pieces. As she lost her memories, he lost his mind.

"What will happen to us after this?" He asks her.

"If you never got back your memories, I think I will never forgive myself" He hiccups as he bites his lips. This thought, about her never getting back her memories, is killing him.

"If only I treated you right, this wouldn't happen" He continues, a single tears leaves his eyes, showing what's inside his heart.

"I'm so sorry, I should've give you happiness but I just stupidly turn it into a tragedy" There, he cries out once again, he wants to let go of the sadness but it keeps sticking on his heart, giving him a severe pain. Yes, he knows, he deserves to feel all this pain, but he still hopes, this pain will go away somehow.

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Luhan's POV

I always think about this question: when will she get back her memories? Maybe in an hour, maybe in one day, or one week, or one month, noone ever knows about this. One thing that I know, I could keep waiting and waiting until she calls my name in a warm way again.

I know I ask for too much, I know I should be thankful for all this blessing. That day when I showed her our pictures together, she immediately trusted me and agreed to come home with me. Actually it's enough for me who is a jerk to her, but still, I want more, I want her back.

I always tell her a story about our memories before we go to bed. I always hope, after I deliver the story, she will remember even a pieces of our memories, but always nothing. I keep telling her, and she keeps listening to me. But this brings us to nothing. One day, one week, one month, up until now, it's already half a year. I start to think about giving up but then I remember the reason why I did this. I want her back because I need to give her my love. She deserves it.

Today, just like the other day, I come home at noon, and she welcomes me. But what surprise me is she wears one of my shirt, and I always love it whenever she used my stuff.

"I buy some foods, let's get the dinner after you wash up" She smiles to me.

All I do is faking a smile and secretly sigh to myself. She is really kind, she is so lovely, but she is not my Lixian. She acts differently, she looks like a stranger. It makes me sad, I just want her to be the old Lixian.

"Okay"

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Author's POV

They both lay down, resting their tired back comfortly. Lixian turns her body to face Luhan, who is laying on the couch near the bed. This is how they sleep for these past 6 months.

"So what is the story for today?" She asks him excitedly but he just smiles weakly.

"The day when we met again after years" He talks, his eyes looks deep into her eyes.

"You slapped me that day" He chuckles faintly, remembering about that day when he teased her but she was too serious.

"Really? What did you do wrong?" She asks, her face shows sorry.

"I acted like a jerk, I teased you sexually" He blurts out and now her face shows shocked.

"Calm down, I told you before, we already made love, right?" He asks and she nods. She just feels surprise Luhan blurting all out.

"And that day, we made love again" He continues and watches her expression. Her face turns red and she looks really cute with her rounded eyes.

"Can we skip about that? It makes me uncomfortable" Lixian frowns cutely to him and he giggles.

"Then it's the end of the story" He smiles but she furrows her brow.

"Why?" She asks innocently.

"Because when we met again, all we did is kissing, hugging, making love" He smirks slightly as he lists everything. This makes her covering her face and she starts whining cutely.

"Stop it, that was embarrassing" She talks and peeks between her fingers. Luhan just laughs at her and noone knows how much he wants to keep her in his embrace. There is time like this, when she acts cute and whiny, she looks exactly like Lixian from the past.

"I get it, but I'm not lying about that, we really did that" He speaks up as he looks up to the ceiling.

"You should rest Xian, it's getting late"

***

At dawn, Lixian wakes up because she feels the coldness. Her body trembles, her face turns pale. She remembers, last night, she got a nightmare about an accident, she was the victim. This nightmare forces her to feel a strange pain, it feels so real for her.

"Luhan" She calls his name, weakly, because she feels so cold.

"Luhan" She repeats louder when he doesn't move, still deep in his sleep.

Slowly, Luhan moves on the couch, because he heard her voice. He opens his eyes and stares at her "What happened?" He asks but Lixian just starts crying because of her bad feeling.

"Hey" Luhan immediately gets off from the couch and comes closer to her. As he kneels beside the bed, he touches her hair and starts stroking it, trying to comfort her.

"It's so cold" She whines at him and immediately he puts his palm on her forehead. It's burning.

"You're sick" He states in panic.

"I'll go get you a medicine" He continues and ready to leave her, but then she grabs his wrist, avoiding him from leaving.

"Just stay with me, I'm begging" She shivers more and as a man, he naturally slips under the blanket with her, pulling her closer to his body, embracing her cold body to send his warmth.

"Your body is freezing" He mumbles as he looks down to her, who already snuggles on his chest. There, he suddenly feels an urge to cry, this is what he always misses, being close to her, embracing her, keeping her in his arms.

"It's really cold" She suddenly wraps her arms around his waist, just to get as much warmness from his body.

"Xian" He whispers unconsciously. Lixian is really close to him, yet she is so far away from him. Her body is right inside his embrace, but her memories about him is so far away, noone between them could catch the memories. Only the time who will bring the memories back.

***

Since that day, Lixian feels something inside her heart, the way he kept her in his embrace, not only giving warm to her body but also to her heart. Everyday, she just waits for noon to come, because then she will meet him again. Everytime she sees him, smile always there gracing her face.

'Maybe I fall in love with him once again, even when the memories never back'

She always thought like that, and everytime she thinks about that, she feels blessed. Maybe, in the process of loving him, she could slowly collect piece by piece of the memories. She always thinks, getting back all her memories will lead into a happy life, but she never thinks about the bad memories, or the sad one. Someday when she finds out, it could kill her.

***

Tonight, Luhan and Lixian watch a movie together, a movie that she loves the most, before she lost her memories. Luhan shows her this in a hope, she will get back a little piece of her memories.

"You always like this movie" Luhan talks as he looks at her. A smile appears on her face, somehow it flutters Luhan's heart. He won't deny a thing, these days, he feels like he fall in love with this new Lixian, or maybe she just grows to Lixian who he loves the most.

Her smile, her attitude, the way she calls his name, the way she whines to him, all feel the same, just like the old time. She often naturally touches him, and it gives a great impact to him.

"Ssst, the movie is starting" She smiles to him and turns to see the flat TV. Right after that, she says nothing and focuses on TV.

When the movie reaches the sad part, Luhan suddenly turns his face to see her. He watches the changes of her face, and it's really amusing, she tries hard not to cry but it causes her to make such a weird expression. He unconsciously smiles at her.

In the other hand, Lixian feels Luhan's gaze upon her, she slowly turns her face and time freezes when she sees his adorable smile. His eyes fix on her, gazing lovingly at her. His gaze really melts her heart, it gives a warm vibe, something joyable.

"Did I ever tell you that you're beautiful?" He asks and this makes her smiling softly at him. She looks so calm outside, but inside, she is in nervous, her heart beats so fast.

"Han" She whispers, her tone is low but it gives him a romantic vibe.

Slowly, Luhan moves his hand to her face, stroking her cheek softly as he leans closer to her. Lixian feels her heart thumping hard as he closes the gap between their lips inch by inch. Tilting his head slightly, he unites his lips with hers, feeling her plum soft lips on his.

Heart beats really fast just like the first time they kissed, he feels his heart will burst because of happiness. This is something he never planned, it just happened like that. They start kissing each other with eyes closed, nibbling softly each other's lips. After a while, Luhan starts deepening the kiss, but suddenly he feels a hard push from her.

"Stop" She raises her tone, but it just for herself.

"Xian? Did I hurt you? I'm sorry" He talks in panic as he holds her hand, caressing it softly.

"Luhan" She whispers faintly as she looks down, hiding her tears from him.

"What happened to our baby?" She asks as she lifts her face, just to find an answer on his eyes. Panic and hopelessness, all on her face as a bunch of memories starts hitting her really hard, totally knocking her out.

"Han, we didn't loss the baby, right?"

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