the second day, when I found out that you left the hospital sometime around midnight, I lost my mind. you weren't supposed to leave yet. that's when I realised selfish and I don't go so well. I couldn't stop regretting the fact that I didn't check on you when changgu called.

         I rushed out of the house, and joined the others in search for you. it was pointless. we had no idea where you would be. of course, how would we know?

          but that day, you know what I found out? I heard from changgu that you lost touch with your family. I wanted to know why, but I couldn't bring myself to ask for more. I felt like it wasn't my place.

           but at least, I was right. she was just droplet of problems into the oceans you carried on your back.

            if only I could have helped you carry some of them.