Okay everything is going shit. I haven't been able to get a job (literally applied everywhere!!)

I'm running low on money

I got terrible news from my doctor (not sharing)

I'm having literal dark thoughts (I'm fine though, I promise)

And I'm starting to have a midlife crisis. I wanna scream and shout into the sky, but at the same time. I expected this so I can't scream and shout. I've seen it coming and I didn't do anything to prevent it. I should've known this would happen, I could've prevented it, but my stupid ass brain said no, let's keep going. This is a shit town and I hate everything about it.