Me trying to strike up conversation with my parents

Also I have a secret fear, I tell my mother everything about myself... and I fear that she hates what I've become. As a parent you never know how your child is gonna grow up, but I fear that my mom hates what I've become, I told her I was Aromantic, I told her I wanted to be a guy, I told her I was depressed and the back of my mind is scared that My mom hates what I've grown up into.

I just hope this quarantine thing is over because I don't like thinking these things when I'm listening to spongebob christmas music!!