You said to me that you might not be back.

I cried,

I hurt,

I made assumptions.

I just want you to be safe,

I just want to make you feel happy again

I just want to be by your side

is that too much to ask?

I guess it is.

The distance between us can't be fixed,

but I can always feel your heartbeat.

It's a very faint, but distinctive sound ringing in my ears

all the time.

I suppose it is because you are on my mind

all the time.

It seems surreal for me to say the words,

"I love you."

But they are the realest words I have ever spoken in my entire life.

I love you.

I'll never stop loving you.

I could never love anyone else, the way I love you.

I made a promise to never leave you,

and I am standing by that fucking promise.

Even after you leave,

I'll be standing by your grave

tall and proud

of the man I met who changed my life.

I regret all the times I left you guessing ever since I came back

and I hope to whatever God is listening that you're well and safe.

Nothing else could matter more to me at this very moment,

than your safety.

I knew I was in too deep,

but despite all these unanswered questions,

and all this pain,

I'll never regret meeting you.

Why?

Because I never knew what love was until now.

If you need to let go, let go.

I'll be waiting for you.

Love,

- M