Song: Hurts like hell by Fleurie

Several of my friends come over to see me. They all want to know what happened; where I have been and how did I meet one without wings. I talk about the cave and how Jade and I got into a truffle and one thing lead to another and I was falling to my death. I really don't want to recall that feeling but just talking about it makes me remember everything.

Everyone wants to know what it was like on the other side and for some reason I don't tell them. I feel that it is sacred in a way, maybe no one is meant to really know.  I mean even if I did they would not believe me. I didn't even believe most of it. Like the trees not responding and the plants and even the animals. Heck they even eat animals over there and we would never even consider that here.

And then the day thing, they love the sunlight as for us we love the moon and being awake at night. And of course the way they live all together and the things they have like the Jeep...how do I explain that. So instead I just let them keep asking me questions and with me not replying they give up and talk about things happening here.

Everyone keeps telling me about everything that has happened in the few days that I have been gone. It seems like forever and it's so hard to believe that so much has actually happened. The one thing that bothers me the most is hearing about the whole ceremony thing with Scolecite and Jade. They go into all the details thinking that I actually care and all I can think about is the two of them together. I bet it was very pretty and the must amazing thing ever but it should have been me with him, not her.

 I excuse myself from everyone to check on Silver. He is still breathing but still very much out of it. I wonder how long they plan on keeping him here like this. I touch his hand briefly before anyone really sees me. "I will be back."  I fly to the tree tops and gaze up at the stars.

I haven't talked to Scolecite yet and coming up here on this branch is our place...our place where we would sit nights just talking and being with each other. There were so many times that we almost kissed but we knew it was against the rules and now, now that is all I want is that one kiss to see if it was meant to be but that will never ever happen.

I hear the leaves move and I look over to see him flying over towards me. Goodness he still makes my heart jitter. I don't know why he has always had that effect on me but he has. I love the way his hair bounces in the wind. I love the way he gracefully flies with no effort what so ever. But most of all, it's his smile that makes my heart go pitter patter.

 He sits down with a nice space between us. A space says it all. Before he would sit so close that we could feel the heat from our bodies and now coldness fills the space between us. I fill my eyes tear up and before he even gets out a word I tell him that I am sorry,  "I didn't win...I'm sorry. I had it...I did...I was on my way back when...when..."

He doesn'tgive me time to finish. "I know Jade already told everyone what happened. Why would you go in that part of the cave...of all caves why that one?" He says it like he takes her side from the get go.

Why do I even have to explain myself. If he even cared about me at all, he would just believe in me. I start to tear up as I defend myself. "I was trying to get away from her...she had me cornered she knew what she was doing."

"Yeah...she won." He throws his hands up in the air and then slowly places them on his knees. "What happened to you? Where did you go? I came back looking for you and you were just gone."

"I was fighting for us...I almost had it and Thristle hit me knocking me farther into the cave." I look at his expression and it's as if he doesn't believe me. I look up at the stars. "You wouldn't believe me if I told you."

"I just might." His hand creeps over to mine. He touches it momentary and the quickly moves it back to leg.

"All I remember is getting up and going after her. I don't know why I went through the falling water but I did and everything just changed," my bottom lip starts to quiver and the tears beg to fall from my eyes.

"Changed...is that where you found that being...who is he anyway?" I hear the tone change in his voice and now I feel like he is accusing me of something so much more.

So this is what this is really about. It's all about Silver. Is he jealous? "He saved me. I fell from the falling water and he was there...he..."

"And he was there...like waiting on you to appear."

"No...it wasn't like that. I don't know alright!" I raise my voice at him. "Silver was just there...look he brought me back here isn't that all that matters." I don't want to argue with him but I know that is where all this is leading to.

"Silver...uh," he says his name like it's something disgusting, like it kills him to say it. "It's like you two are close or something." He rolls his eyes and looks away from me, almost like he is ashamed of me.

"He is just helping me alright. What does it matter anyway?"

"Because Azurite...I'm taken now. The ceremony went on without you." He turns his head away from me and I thought I actually saw a tear begging to escape. 

I inhale slowly and then exhale. I don't want to think about the damn ceremony. It would have still happened regardless if I was there or not...she won. I don't want to think about the two of them kissing or doing whatever else it is that two do once they are united as one. "I know...I heard it was quite spectacular. Are you happy with her?" I ask.

"Does it even matter; it's not like we can do anything about it. These rules we have to live by...I hate it...I do, but..."

"There is nothing we can do about it...I know." I fall back and lay on the big leaf of the woods that hold me in place. He falls back beside me and I feel his hand reach for mine again. His hand is so warm on top of mine. But the funny thing is...he is not Silver and that feeling that I had earlier with Silver is nothing like the way that I am feeling now. My emotions are all mixed up nothing feels right anymore. May bvb e I am a traitor.

"I'll never forget spending nights up here with you like this. Jade could care less about the stars," he says it like they have been here several times.

The mention of her name again sets me off and I rise back up into sitting. How could he even talk about her up here, this is our place and I know he has brought her here at least one time. Our place...ours but didn't I do practically the same thing with Silver. I took him up to the top of the trees and I sat under the stars with him and...and...that is just it, maybe just maybe Scolecite and I were never meant to be together anyway.

He sits up beside me and grabs my arm. I feel the tears rush down and I try to avoid making eye contact with him. "Azurite...look at me please. I know, I should have never brought her here, this was our place. I know that but you have to understand I thought...I thought that you...that you were dead."

I turn to look at him. I let him see the hurt. "But I'm not dead...am I?" I know saying it that way hurt him but a part of me doesn't care at the moment. I push him away and stand up. "Why would you just assume I was dead...I could have just been trapped or lost or..."

"Because of Rowan...he...he..." He shakes his head and looks down at his feet.

Rowan, why haven't I seen him. Something is not right and I start to panic. "What...tell me where is he? I have been calling for him but he is not returning my calls. Where is he?"

"Azurite, he is not well. They have been trying to heal him but without you he is dying."

My hand quickly covers my mouth and now the tears really start to fall. "What? Where is he? I have to get to him." I stand up and start pacing.

"He is in Quartz Cavern; they are doing everything they can."

I bust out crying, "No...I have to go to him." I don't wait for Scolecite to say anything else even though I hear him calling me to come back.