I woke up in a panic feeling my body and mind racing. I felt so sick from all the things that went down the day prior. I felt out of it. Like I wasn't even a human...it was just all confusing and foggy. I couldn't stay still. My mind was racing and my heart wouldn't calm down...I felt Kokichi there with me, but he felt like he was a million miles away.

So far even the stars were closer--even though we were right beside one another. It was a horrible feeling. Seeing him right there next to me...even though I felt like he was a world away from me. I wanted him to be here with me. I wanted to feel like he was here next to me...I wanted-

"Shumai?" He asked, slowly waking up. I felt bad as it was three in the morning and I had woken him up by moving around. "Sorry Kokichi..." I whispered feeling some tears come into my eyes. Shuichi...you can't cry now. Kokichi looks exhausted, but I am here waking him up after worrying him when I got back from work...I'm the worst fiance ever.

"It's okay baby, here, I'm right here," His arms moved around me and my body felt guilty for accepting the embrace. But I still wanted to get closer to him even though I felt super guilty about waking him up. His arms kept telling me to come closer and that it was alright, but my body showed no mercy.

I felt super tense and like I couldn't calm down no matter how much attention he gave me...I love him and I feel safe with him, so why now? Why do I have to feel like he isn't helping me at all when I'm positive he is. "Hey I know you don't feel like talking so I will talk to remind you," His words pulled me back into the moment and made me realize that I was making this all so much worse by worrying and overthinking again.

"I know you feel alone and overwhelmed, but know I am here and I love you more than anything." He whispered. His words were like kisses on my heart. Making my body relax and calm down as they warmed my heart. It was like the words were being traced into my memory making all the bad memories all overwhelmed with the words that they are unable to torment me any longer.

"I know I am not a poet like you are my beloved, but let me tell you these words," He paused for a moment. His breath was like the forgotten harmony to my lonely melody. Our breath made a song that let the room's aura become one of safety and peace. It was its own little world and I loved being in this world with my love. My Kichi.

"You are everything to me, always trying your hardest and letting me do what I choose. I want to be able to give that back to you, so in this moment, here and now, I will kiss all the places I love and tell you why I love them." I blushed at that remark before he moved on top of me so he was straddling my hips. I looked into his eyes and saw that his expression was pure and full of love. It made me feel happy that he is doing this out of love and not lust.

Kokichi isn't one to do things out of lust when I am not in the right mood--well when I'm having a breakdown like this or crying. But if I am busy you best believe he will get all up in my business and distract me until I give him what he wants...I love him for it so I would never complain about this.

He moved his lips to plant a kiss on my forehead. "I love your mind and forehead because for one I can only kiss it in moments like these when we are alone and two, your mind because you are always thinking of me even when work is intense and making you have to give it most of your focus you still focus on me and it's amazing Shuichi." He moved next to my cheeks before whispering,

"I love your cheeks because of your blush and how pink and red I can make them in a matter of moments because my beloved gets flustered so easily." Then my chin. "I love your chin because you always put your hand here when you are deep in thought and it always makes me blush~ And only you are able to do that so efficiently my love~"

He also moved to my nose, "I love your nose because it's so cute and I love to poke it because then your face becomes confused and it's so super cute~" He teased a bit and I felt myself giggle a bit as well before he silenced me by kissing my lips.

"I love your lips because they are always so soft, warm, and not to mention highly kissable~" He smiled and planted kiss after kiss on my lips making me blush and giggle more at this. His hands moved to gently rub my shoulders as he moved to kiss down my neck. "I love your neck because it's more sensitive~ You always get ticklish here and always get super embarrassed by the cute noises you make when I touch you here~" He smiled a bit before planting one kiss at the base of my neck. His hands moved to the bottom of my shirt and I got even more embarrassed.

"Ko-" I started before he put a finger to my lips. "Shh~ I'm not finished," He said before he moved to raise my shirt to my neck before he removed it completely. I felt so exposed. It's not like he hasn't seen me like this before...but it still makes me embarrassed when he does.

He moved to kiss my collar bone, "I love your collarbone because it is always so warm along with your neck and it makes me feel so close to you when I get to feel your skin against mine," He said before kissing down to where my heart was. "I love your heart because when I hear your heartbeat it makes me feel so calm and I can always feel more sleepy so I can fall asleep better. And it is what keeps you alive and keeps you here with me," He smiled and looked up at me before kissing my heart again.

"So I love your heart, and the rest of you," He smiled softly and slowly moved back to my face to gently kiss me again. "How are you feeling now my beloved?" His question made me have to try to remember why I was off in the first place--and it was difficult but I couldn't even remember. Because now it was just me and Kokichi.

"I feel so much better, my love," I said gently, feeling euphoria as he moved to lay beside me. I moved so I could hold him in my arms and felt him fall asleep against me. I smiled softly and kissed his forehead whispering a quick "goodnight" in his ear before falling asleep next to him.

-Hello hello! I'm sorry my posting schedule has been all over--I have been trying to do a lot at once, but updates should be back to the normal this week and forward! Thank you all for your patience and support!-

-SK-