Shuichi moved to kiss me one more time on the lips before holding me close to him. "Sorry, I have to go to work now love...I will see you when I get home okay? Then we can talk about how your day went." He moved his hand to brush my hair out of my face making me smirk a bit at this.

"But Shuichi~" I whined before he gave me one more sad glance. "I love you baby." He said one more time before he let his arms leave from around me. He walked over to the door and left the room. I waved bye to him before I started getting ready to go to work. I smiled to myself as I went downstairs to make some breakfast.

"Shuichi," I sighed looking at the counter seeing he left me some food ready to be heated up to eat. I blushed a bit and moved over to the table to see what he had left for me. It was two bagels with a package of strawberry cream cheese. I loved it when he did things like this, it just reminds me of all the times he does nice and cute things like this for me. It always makes me so happy remembering this is my life now.

He doesn't even have to tell me he loves me anymore. He already shows it so well with all the little things he does for me, but I can't say it doesn't make me worry that he is giving me more than I will ever be able to give to him in a lifetime...wait a minute. We are going to be getting married soon and we haven't even talked about when, where, or how...maybe Maki and the others could help a bit.

I looked away from the table for a moment to go and grab my phone from where it was upstairs. I was feeling nervous and excited about how me and Shuichi were going to get married, but I wanted to be the one to plan our perfect wedding to make up for a little bit of all the times he is doing things for me. Even when he is busy and stressed he still thinks of me and I love him so much for that...but having such a romantic fiance can be a problem because they are always giving you everything while you just feel like you aren't giving enough.

I shook my head a few times. I need to talk to the others to make sure that they are in on this plan. I need all the help I can get and Shuichi can not find out about this...because I want to make this special for him.

I sighed and ran my fingers through my hair. "How do you plan the wedding for a perfect man that you want to marry?" I asked myself before opening the text conversation with Maki, Tenko, Himiko, and I. "You don't because it's impossible to satisfy something too perfect for this world." My shoulders slumped a bit and the more self deprecating thoughts soon came into my head.

How am I supposed to plan the perfect wedding?

Shuichi deserves so much...so will I ever be able to give that to him?

I'm not good enough

Yet he still chooses me over the others.

And by others I mean anyone else in his life that would be better for him

He might even be happier with Scarlette...

She seems like a good person...but I don't know

I love him more than anything...

So I worry he will be disappointed by anything I put together for him...

I felt my eyes get all watery so I snapped myself out of it and sent a message in the chat.

Kokichi: Hey guys

Maki: Kokichi? What do you need?

Himiko: Why this early in the morning?

Tenko: ...What?

Kokichi: Me and Shuichi are going to be getting married. And I need help planning the perfect wedding for us.

Tenko: Shuichi and you are getting married?!

HImiko: Tenko! Calm down okay? Deep breaths.

Tenko: Thank you, sorry, I was just--panicking

Maki: Okay, so is there a certain theme you want or...?

Kokichi: We both really like flowers and the colors purple and blue. So maybe a garden wedding that is outside?

Himiko: That sounds super cute

Tenko: I guess that wouldn't be too bad to deal with.

Maki: I understand, I will work with the others to see what we can find.

Kokichi: Thank you guys so much for this

Himiko: Yeah! It will be great

Kokichi: Thank you again!

Tenko: Yup

Himiko: Best of luck to you today!

I closed my phone and looked back at the table. A garden wedding. I like the sound of that! And I'm sure Shuichi will love it as well! One of our first dates when we got out of here was to a local garden that was full of pretty flowers. That was also the date I looked at him and knew that this would be the rest of my life. Living with this man who makes me happier than anything...I just hope he feels the same.

Sure he asked me to marry him, and knows basically everything about me...but I worry that maybe after we get married all of this will go away...and it will be as though it never existed in the first place. I just find myself wondering why he decided to be with me out of all the people we have come across. After all this time we are still together...and I just worry that he is giving up another life he could have been happier in.

Now that I think about it. He does seem happier with me around him. Sam has told me so many times that this is true. Anytime I had to stay after for school work or something that I had to go and work while Shuichi was at home with Sam he would always be in his room with his blue blanket wrapped around his shoulders writing poetry about how he was feeling. They were all poems about me, well the ones he allowed me to see anyway.

He keeps his notebooks of poems on a shelf in our room. He keeps them organized and has a different poetry book for the ways he feels. One for the ones about his parents, one for how the friendships we have make him feel, one about Go-go, Hajime, and Nagito because they are still the best friends we could ever ask for and Go-go is the reason why I have been thinking about adopting a daughter with Shuichi...but I will ask him about that after the wedding. He then has one for the love poems he writes for me, the lonely poems he writes when he is alone, and one of the more personal ones where he feels as though he isn't good enough.

I have noticed that he hasn't touched that one in a long while...but I still wonder what makes him feel not good enough. Because I know what makes me feel that way, but why would Shuichi someone who gives me everything feel as though he isn't good enough...? But I do understand the way his horrible parents treated him so he had to move in with Sam...and how that can affect these things.

I started munching on my bagel after it came out of the toaster and was all ready to eat with the cream cheese on it. I remembered how Shuichi told me how much writing his feelings helps him, so he got me a notebook one year for my birthday. He did get me other things like stuffed animals and a new coloring book, but I found this odd until a couple weeks later I was having the more darker thoughts of my mind and Shuichi was unable to be home.

I opened the notebook and wrote in it as if Shuichi could hear me. It made me feel safe knowing that maybe somewhere he was here with me, even while he was away.

I finished eating and got my things ready for the workday. Okay, here is to the last week of work!

-We be vibing with planning the wedding! I have so many odd ideas for it, but I'm sure it will be great! Thank you all so much for reading!-

-SK-