David Floyds P.O.V

I was finally able to be left alone today. I didn't want to see anyone. Sorry, i mean be in anyones presents.  I didn't want to here anymore sad and dissapointed gasps as my friends and family saw i had no eyes. I wore sunglasses and never took them off. Sure I could put on those eye patch things or whatever but i just couldn't bring myself to.
I wake up for the first time in my own home again. I paused realizing I couldn't see but then remember like every morning.
I go downstairs and start pushing things agenst the door. I didn't want anyone in this house. I wanted to be alone with my notebook and suicidal thoughs.
Rocking back and forth well thoughts screamed at me all the shit ive done wrong. Mabey I deserved it. Mabey im alone with no one to talk to for a reason. My whole life was just leading up to nothing.
My band mates called today. There gonns give me the money to survive for the next 9 years. The goverment gave everyone there share of food so all I had to worrie about was paying for rent. I wouldn't even do it myself I told them to go do it for me. So now my rent it paid for 9 years.
The only time I leave the house is through the back door witch was easy for me because i could lock it so no one could get in no matter what they tried.
I didn't want to see another human anytime soon. Humans are the reason im like this.