I was walking to the bus stop since my car broke down and I don't really had any other transport to get to work. I rubbed my eyes and yawned, I surely didn't get enough sleep last night, was up until two or three a.m. so I could finish up with the interview that my boss told me to take from one of the biggest stars around. Rap Monster. My boyfriend.

"What the..."

I stopped immediately and dig my feet in to the ground, I just couldn't take another step. Neither back nor forwards. I was stuck. Few meters in front of me, right next to the bus stop where was him. Okay, occasionally I would have been pleasantly surprised and even run up to him to give a warm hug, but this time it wasn't as always. I rubbed my eyes once more just to make sure that this wasn't the hallucination caused by the lack of sleep. Rap Monster had his arms wrapped around some other girl.

I was unable to function or think straight already, bus as he leaned in and pecked her on the forehead, at that moment I knew and despite the consequences I had to do something. So I walked up to the couple, he wasn't looking my direction so I had to face his back, tapped him on the shoulder and as he turned around I slapped him on the face. I didn't even want to hear an explanation or anything.

His dark deep eyes widened and he grabbed onto the cheek that was burning and glanced at me in disbelief. It probably took him few seconds to recognize my face, because after he did I could literally see how his jaw dropped. The girl turned around with him and now was staring at both of us covering her mouth and her eyes was huge as well.

"Cezna, what are you doing?"

He sort of whispered, sort of yelled. I'm not even sure how it was possible, but he was able to make that tone come true.

"Don't Cezna me, what the hell are YOU doing?"

I pointed at the girl next to him and she noticed my finger showing right at her, she looked around like hoping that maybe I was looking at someone behind her, but there was no one standing at the back.

"Excuse me? Since when I can't hang with my friends?!"

I could see how suddenly he went from horrified and hurt little boy, to an outrageous evil guy with flaming revenge's sparks in his eyes.

"Friends???"

I yelled at him mad.

"Friends???"

The girl shouted at him from the other side and we exchanged a short glance. So she didn't know either.

"Hahaha." I giggled to his face, this situation was so absurd I would much rather laugh than cry, even if I was hurt like hell. "Good luck playing your games now."

I hissed and nodded to a girl. Tears were in her eyes and she nodded at me too. Suddenly she fearlessly walked up to NamJoon and slapped the jams out of him, now it was my turn to cover up the mouth, which was wide open, her hit seemed to be stronger, way stronger than mine.

"Bye jerk."

She waved at him and glanced at me one last time before leaving. I followed her back with my eyes and frowned. It's so unfair even known that NamJoon was the one to play a double game, it's two of us who got hurt, this mental pain was bigger than his physical injurie.

"Tell me honestly, are you stupid?"

I asked him.

"What?? No!"

"Some people are stupid enough to hurt the ones, who love them the most."

I shook my head turned around. Even known I had to stay here, in the bus stop, because my work was waiting for me, I couldn't handle NamJoon's company for any longer. So I just walked away. Good thing he didn't even try to chase me.

I got back home and sat down by my computer. I opened the laptop and sighted at the screen. What was I gonna do? Where was I gonna run? Even my screen saver was a picture of me and him. Really? I quickly opened the internet to hide from out happy smiles and went straight to my email. I typed the message for my boss adding the interview with my boyfriend that he wanted so much and closed the laptop.

What's now? I could hear the echo of my own breathing, it was so empty. So lonely here. I always lived alone, but somehow not being able to share my thoughts with NamJoon made me sick of this silence. He would always listen to what I got to say, he had not less to say back. But who are going to listen to me now? The walls? Am I really THAT lonely?

Someone knocked and I slowly got up from the chair. I felt like I will not be able to open the door, I hesitated before grabbing the handle, but finally I pulled it and looked outside.

Bouquet. That's all I saw, it was so big I couldn't even tell, who was standing behind it. Except that I couldn't help but notice a blonde hair tuft soaring up there. NamJoon, of course.

"Shut it."

I said and listened to my advice myself shutting the door in front of him. I was about to walk away, but then I heard a light knock once again. It couldn't be anyone else but him, but I still looked through peephole.

"Oh come on, Cezna, I know you like it."

"If you know that, you might as well be aware that bouquet isn't going to change the jerk that you truly are."

I shouted so my voice could be heard on the other side. I heard him sigh and knock again.

"I can change."

I almost, ALMOST laughed out loud.

"You can change? Now you see, that is exactly the problem. I don't want you to change, I fell in love with a man you are now."

"So why won't you let me in?"

I could almost clearly sense the pain in his voice. One more second and I would have fell for his charm like I did many times before. It seemed like my thoughts hurt him, but come on, his actions left some pretty ugly scars in my heart.

"I don't want you to change, I want you to leave."

I sighted and walked away from the door. Just before I went in to my room, I turned around like kind of hoping to see him standing there with that bouquet of flowers sweetly smiling at me. Instead an empty hallway was there.

"I won't!"

I heard from the other side just before turning off the light.

In the morning I got up with quite a headache, but dark memories of yesterday wasn't haunting me at all. Actually it was other way around I happily greeted the wonderful morning, got dressed and ate breakfast. Somehow I was at peace. I grabbed my keys from the table and unlocked the door. As I tried to open the door I soon realized that despite my pushing it stood in same place.

"What the..."

I mumbled to myself and hit the door hard once more. I heard a gasp from the other side and backed up. Now I was scared.

"Cezna?"

NamJoon weakly whispered. I looked through the peephole, but I couldn't see a thing. It was empty outside.

"Why are you still here?"

I yelled at him when I finally managed to get out my house. NamJoon was blocking the way with his body as he was leaning on to the door from the other side on the outside. He looked cold and sleepy. I looked closer and realized that he probably stayed here over night. The flowers he brought yesterday seemed to have lost their color and was about to die. It needed water.

"I said I won't leave."

He mumbled and tried to get up, but instead just slipped on the ground and almost fell, but I caught his hand at the last second.

"You're such an idiot."

I said to him in disbelief. I bet my eyes were wide and set on his face. He noticed my stare and grinned with half of his face, then suddenly held the bouquet in front of him offering me to take it. I looked at it for a second before realizing what he wants.

"For you."

I sighted and noted it on my to-do list that I should have never do this ever again. I pushed away the flowers and threw him the keys. His such an asshole, but what can I do if I fell for him?

"Pu the flowers in the vase, they need water. " I said and turned around to walk away. I knew that he was shocked. "And get some rest you're not invulnerable either."

"Wait."

NamJoon's voice stopped and I stood there, but didn't turn around to face him. I felt his hands wrap around me from behind as he pecked my forehead leaning over me, I was so much shorter than him. Mixed feeling... I didn't want to let him do it, but it felt right.

"I love you, you know?"

"I don't know if I can trust you again." I said after handing him the keys from my house, what a smart decision. "But I sure do love you."

I smiled to myself and walked away. I gave him a second chance, because everyone deserves it. You fool me once shame on you, you fool me twice, shame on me. But I was willing to take that risk.

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