Why am I still here? A thought crossed my mind, I couldn't understand what I was still doing by the school gate leaning on my motorcycle with additional helmet in my hands like waiting for someone to come. But no one ever did. Because no one was supposed to come. Look at what my bravery turned into. It shattered my life into little pieces that I was unable to glue back together.

Many months passed. Soon after our last conversation Sana moved out the city and I haven't seen her since. Manhyung moved on from the hate he felt towards me and just started ignoring me. Mina was in constant depression over her best friend leaving and her ship not sailing, but she was the only person left for me. I didn't have anyone else to talk to. Anyone else to keep me a human. Without Sana I became wild.

I wasn't sure how many people besides Mina still remembered Min Yoongi I used to be. Now I was dangerous. A dangerous fool. I forgot that rules once existed, I broke them and created my own laws that everyone followed. Most people around me feared me. But I wasn't fearless either. I was afraid of the person I became. When Sana left I wasn't brave enough to be a person. I became my own shadow.

All that mattered to us didn't matter anymore. I knew that now no one would dare to say anything to me nor to her. No one would open their mouth about us, but now it was too late. I doubt if I'll ever see her again.

The bell announcing the end of the lessons rang. People came outside and shared the thoughts about their day with their friends. If they had any. I should have been there as well. In school, learning. Supposedly creating my future, but I didn't care about that anymore.

"Would you look at that, ruining yourself for no apparent reason." I swear to God, I would have recognised that voice anywhere. "Hi, Yoongi." I faced Sana's eyes as I turned around.

As if nothing has changed I suddenly felt weak in my knees. I still loved her. Distance and time did nothing. One second was enough to know she still had me.

"What are you doing here?" That's all I wanted to know. She slightly smiled. It wasn't a real happy smile, but that was enough to hurt me. To make me want what I can't have, even more.

"I came to see if you weren't doing what I predicted you to be doing." She shrugged and eyed me from head to toe. Her eyes stopped by my vehicle. "But you're doing exactly that." She sighed.

"Doing what?" My voice was full of inpatients. I didn't want to waste my breath on useless words, I just wanted to press my lips against hers. Once again I couldn't do that.

"You're ruining your future." She stated calmly. Was I brave enough to admit that she was right?"Yoongi what are you thinking?"

"About you, I'm thinking about you."

I said what came to mind and Sana shook her head. "Not what I meant. What do you think you're doing wasting your life like that? I know you cared about what's going to happen. Yoongi, Mina told me a lot. Why did you change?"

Did she really wanted to know?
Could I really tell her that it was because of her?
I just bit my lip and looked away from her eyes even if that required major strength.

"You know why." I hissed.

"I don't." She declined and I gulped. "I don't know, but I want to know." Why was she asking for impossible.

"I changed because of you." After a minute of silence I realised that it was time to speak. As those words left my mouth there was no turning back. "You made me brave enough not to fulfill society's expectations. I stopped caring about what they want me to be. I do what I desire and that's all. You made me brave Sana, when I wanted to be with you it wasn't my moment of weakness. I was brave enough to go against the world's expectations, because it didn't want to see us together."

My chest was pumping, going up and down quickly. Sana nodded seriously and then grinned. "Well that's just ridiculous." I didn't expect such reply and for a moment I wad dumbfounded.

"What?"

"Yoongi don't you understand? You have your life to live and I have mine. I could have never changed you if you weren't willing to do so. I have nothing to do with you and who you became or who you were. Our fate lies in our own hands and only you are responsible for your future. Yoongi, I'm just a commoner in your life, just like you are in mine." Sana took a deep breath. "We're just strangers, we're just small episodes in a long period of time which is life."

I didn't want to believe her. I wanted to associate my change with her. I wanted her to be that special person whom changed me. But my heart was telling me that Sana is right.

"But we're not impossible anymore. We can do what we want. We are free to choose!" I exclaimed my last hope.

Sana smiled. This time it was the smile I wanted to see for so long. Real smile. "Yes, we're free to choose. And I chose not to ruin your life by staying in it. Why don't you put in some effort and don't ruin it as well? I gave you up for your future, but you shouldn't give up." Sana stepped closer to me. I could feel her breath on my skin and I leaned in almost merging our lips. But then I stopped at the last second and she smiled even wider.

"Be brave Yoongi, be brave enough to live your life." She whispered into my ear. I felt her soft lips on my cheek. "Just this once." She chuckled and skipped away without a goodbye. I followed her with my eyes.

I don't know how much time has passed when I felt a tap on my shoulder and quickly turned around facing Mina. Her expression was bright and I inhaled easier that she didn't notice Sana's presence. "Shall we go?" She asked me and I nodded her giving a helmet.

"Home?" I questioned as she hopped on a motorcycles seat behind me. "It's Friday, so anywhere really." Her laugh gave out to me that she was excited for the ride.

"Then we're going to one special place." I announced delighted knowing exactly where to go.

I will be brave Sana, I already am.