That day I bumped into Manhyung. He looked up for a moment, I knew he won't say anything, because he never did, but that one glance was all I needed. I saw pain burn in his eyes all over again and he shifted his gaze. I could understand him. Taste of bitter betrayal still bothered him, so I just moved out the way. I walked out the school building feeling sort of devastated that a person I once called my brother was now a stranger and it was all my fault. No one else's. But as I saw her all those thoughts went away.

Now it was her and only her. Today was the day I'll be brave enough. Or that's what I told myself.

"Sana wait up!" She was walking out the school with Mina. She shrugged and just gave Sana a wink before stumbling to the side, where she supposedly saw some of her other friends. I was thankful for giving us some space. But not thankful enough to stop being nervous, about what I was going to say.

"What's up?" Sana giggled. Either I was paranoid or it actually did sound fake. She wasn't happy. "Nothing, just taking you home." And we continued on walking along side.

Our hands would brush against one another from time to time and my heartbeat would become unstable for a short period of time. But she never even glanced at me, not once. I never felt this feeling before. A feeling of being alone, while you give all you got not to be. She has changed me, before she came into my life I didn't even know that feeling existed. I didn't know love existed.

But was I brave enough to fight for my love?

But was she brave enough to accept my feeling when everyone around us just screamed at us not to? We were inappropriate. We were a glitch of this system. This shouldn't have happened. I shouldn't have let my feeling be a priority and pushed my best friend into the background. But this temptation was burning my chest and I couldn't resist it.

I thought that Sana was just a game for Manhyung. And maybe for the first few seconds she was. However I should have realised sooner. From the moment I saw her I knew she can change the world and she changed my best friend as well. Just because she could have been a game for him, my interference wasn't any less sinful. But she wasn't a game and by now everyone judged us.

I didn't care.

But she did.

We stopped in front of her house and I felt my palms sweat. If not those words I heard her say to Mina I would have never built up courage to do this. But from that point on I knew I have a chance. And with all of my heart I hoped that she won't reject me.

"Thanks for the company, Yoongi." Sana was about to walk away.

"Wait," I said trying not to touch her. I knew that as soon as I'd do that it would light up a fire between us. "Can I have a word?" She nodded with hesitation. Either she knew what's up or she just didn't trust me. And either way it broke me.

Save me. I need your help before I fall. Fall in love. She was still fighting her feelings back. However I didn't have a chance. I knew from the very starts, from the first glance that she had me.

"I love you, Sana. I love you more than anyone or anything. You are my everything. Please don't let me be hurt alone. I need you. I love you, Sana." It felt like a rock pushed off my chest. Until I noticed expression on her face.

She had tears in her eyes. She was in pain from my words and I cringed. I didn't want to hurt her. "Yoongi this is real life, not a fairytale." She sighed. "If we lived in a different world, maybe. But society's expectations are flames burning under our feets and we are unable to jump above them." She gulped. "Yoongi don't ruin this friendship. Because it can't be anything else. They don't want us to be. They won't allow us to be." She skipped to the top of the staircase.

I thought she will leave before I will be able to speak, but I was faster. "Who cares what they think?" I stated passionately. "It's what we feel, Sana." I run up to her on the staircase.

"Don't you understand?" Her eyes were full of tears. "This is impossible, we are impossible." She shook her head and her brown curls fell into her eyes, but she didn't hear I noticed a first crystal clear tear escape and stream down her cheek. I unintentionally reached out to wipe it off, but she smacked my hand away with a painful expression. It was hard for her to handle all of this. It was unfair of me to put all the pressure of my feelings for her on her shoulders. But I couldn't bear it within myself anymore.

"We're not impossible, Sana," I played with her name and she just hissed disgusted. "That's what world wants you to believe, they don't want you to seem 'inappropriate'. But how do they know what's right for us? They don't! Only our hearts can tell her what to do." I placed my palm over my chest where my heart was beating from the moment I saw her. "And my heart is telling me that I have to be with you."

She watched me like I was some sort of creature from space. Not a human being. As if we spoke different langauges. She didn't understand, and she didn't want to understand my words.

"Then maybe I don't have one." Finally she let out a silent sob. "Because it's quiet Yoongi, it doesn't tell me to stay with you or leave. But I know what's right, and it's... not this." She pointed at us two. "It's not right, I can't. I'm sorry."