Sometimes I don't even know why the heck I tell anyone anything. Because more then half the time I swear they only pretend they care. They care for a while before just not even responding. No ones gives a crap about my problems and to be honest that's probably a good thing because who needs another person's problems when you already have your own?

Some people care. I care. Why? Cuz I hate it when people feel like nothing. I can't stand it. I won't stand for it. I want people to feel loved and cared for. I want them to feel so loved that they declare it to the world.

I feel like the world just wants to tease me in the cruelest way possible. Oh here is a friend. Or who you think is your friend. Enjoy and cherish him/her while you can because you know what? In two months, you won't have them anymore. Someone will replace you. Why did you fall for it Emmy? You know that's how it works. That's how it has always been.

Cuz I'm desperate. And I hate myself for it.