Tw: panic attack, lots of crying, self hate

Note: I'm not good at any this stuff and I've never had a panic attack before. This is all winged from what I've read and heard on here. Please don't be rude. Thank you

*Patton pov*

"..."

"No one likes you.."

"No one will ever think you're worth their time..."

"You're worthless Patton..."

I heard all of these horrible things as I wandered around a black room. I couldn't see ANYTHING. The voice kept saying all those mean things and I started crying

"See? Worthless..."

I tried to speak, but all that came out was a weak voice crack. I kept hearing all these things that I never wanted, that I hoped never came true. It said all of the things I was terrified of. When I could finally speak I asked, "Who are you?! What do you want from me?!" I let out a sob, "Im what all of what your 'friends' think you are.." Why did it say friends like that?! It laughed, "Your friends all hate you Patton. Especially..Logan." That last part hit me like a truck. I had always feared that Logan secretly hated me. Sure I was terrified all the others did too bit this was more...extreme. I was on my knees when I saw all of my friends. I ran to them but when I reached out to them my hand phased through them. I jolted up on my bed, tears streaming down my face, "I-It w-w-was j-just a d-dre-am.." I said to myself between the sobs. I curled in a ball, desperately pleading Logan doesn't knock on my door, and with my luck...he did, "Patton...? I heard crying..are you okay..?" He asked. I sighed and accepted my fate, "Y-yeah! I'm good L-Logan!" I lied. He walked in, "I don't believe tha- Whoa!" He rushed over to me, "What happened??" He asked. I put my hand up in a 'oh no I'm fine..really" way, "D- uh..I-I'm fine.." I lied again. He looked at me with a 'i know you're not' face. He sighed, "You sure?" "Y-Yeah!" I laughed nervously. He sighed again, "No..tell me. I know something is wrong..you..." He said really kindly which made me start crying again. His eyes widened and started apologizing, "Oh shi-- Sorry Patton I didn't mean to-" I interrupted him by hugging him. I sobbed on his shoulder for a good two minutes then started apologizing like crazy. He said it was fine, when it obviously WASN'T! I let go of him, "S-s-sorry.." I mumbled. Logan chuckled, "It's okay Patton. Can you tell me what happened?" He asked. So I did. Not the whole story, just the voice and friends thing, and he listened the whole time! When I was done he nodded, "So it was just a bad dream?" He asked, I nodded. He sighed and mumbled something to himself, i think it was a mental note or something, "Well..it looks like you need more sleep. I'll leave you alone for now. Call me if you need me." He said, I nodded and hummed as he walked out. As i fell back asleep I thought of all of Logan's characteristics. His eyes, his hair, his smile, the way he pushed up his glasses. I thought of all these things as I drifted to sleep.