Your POV

I was walking home from training exhausted, yet determined.. Determined to kill all titans these that get in my way, but.. I can't be as determined as Eren is.. I can't ever be.. I really like Eren, he is so brave, strong, and not Afraid to say what he needs to say, I'm not any of that, I know for a fact Eren doesn't like me back, Im pretty sure he has a thing for Mikasa, but I didn't hate her, I wasn't jealous,... Then what am I... Depressed.. Yea, depressed. I was looking at my arms that are covered in cuts, not from titans, but.. From me, I snap out of my thoughts when I hear our Captain call us to the gather up area, I was one of the last ones to get there, I stood straight, the last was who got there was Eren, he stood next to me and looked at me, and smiled waving at me, I blushed but hid it and waved back, "ATTENTION CADETS TODAY I WILL PAIR YOU GUYS UP INTO GROUPS OF TWO AND YOUR GONNA FIGHT MEYLE STYLE! " he yelled, Meyle.. No.. I'm to weak.. What if I get partnered up with Eren.. I don't wanna hurt him.. No.. Please no........ , "CADET JAEGER WITH CADET L/N! ", Oh god.. No.. Please no.. NO.., I can't fight him, I can't...my body started to shake and Eren noticed, he walked up to me and held my hands, my eyes widened a little, I blushed a deep red color, "don't worry, you'll do fine, I promise ok.. " he said as he smiled at me holding my hands a bit tighter, I nodded and got in a fighting stance, he lunged at me with a punch and I dodged it, it was my turn..no.. I don't want to.. I lunge at him with a very weak punch and he dodges it like nothing, I fell onto my knee's with the need to cry, "What was that y/n, you can do better than that! " he said raising his voice, "I... I.. I CANT DO IT!" I said as I ran away, I ran as far away from there as I could but I noticed, Eren was right behind Me and I couldn't pick up my speed.. He was gaining on me, he grabbed my hand and pulled me Into a.. Hug...a hug... I gasped in shock, "Stop saying your weak, please..I know you can do it.. ", he said which made my features dusted with a dark red, I felt my eyes blur with tears as I fell on my knees, a tear went down my face, and that's when all of them escaped from my eyes, I looked at my arms.. And took off my jacket reveling my cuts all over my arms, I looked at Eren, his eyes were widened in complete shock.. Now he thinks I'm a suicidal freak.. "I can't do it Eren.. I can't fight you no matter what.. Because... I.. I.. I LOVE YOU!.. I'm hurting myself because I can't take it.. I can't handle even a day without hating myself... But your the one keeping me alive!... Your the reason I get up in the morning to train, BECAUSE I LOVE YOU!", I cried into my hands ashamed on what I just told him, 'I screwed up.. I just screwed up... I sc-' my thoughts were cut short when Eren got in his knees and placed his hand under my chin tilting my away, up to look at him, he wiped my tears away with his thumb, that Is when I felt something press against my lips, My eyes widened as I noticed he was kissing me, my muscles tensed up, all heat went to my face turning it dark red.. 'This is happening.. He is kissing me.. Wait.. Doesn't he like Mikasa.. Then why is he.. He can't like me.. Can he? '..he pulled away and looked at me, "I love you to F/N.. Please dont hurt yourself.. Just please..I love you so much.." He said holding me in his arms, "o-ok.. I won't.. For you",I said as I buried my head into his chest, "thank you... ", he said as he helped me up and went back to train.. He loves me.. Wow.. The world can be cruel.. Yet so beautiful.