A/N: the clip above is a cover from a boy who's voice is Matthew's. Besides that they don't resemble in any other way to each other. Only the voice! SO THEY DON'T PHYSICALLY LOOK LIKE EACH OTHER.

Billie Jean
Michael Jackson

Justin McCall

The daylight shone through the white curtains right into my eyes, instantly waking me up as I heard the birds chriping a random song like there was no tomorrow.

A small smile was brought to my lips as I watched Matt leaning his head on my chest since I had been laying on my back.

His dark messy hair was laying across his forehead and his gray eyes were closed yet you could still see the dark bags under his eyes while he slowly breath in and out.

Usually this would have been a perfect moment to me, but it was far from being perfect.

Matthew had been crying non-stop ever since we came home yesterday. I've been with him the whole time to support him as much as I could. He just fell asleep around an hour ago.

I was taken back by surprise, because I had never seen him cry and the fact that he just couldn't stop crying, broke my heart in ways you could never imagine especially since I felt so powerless.

I didn't exactly know how to handle this, I wasn't exactly 'friend' material and I did try to call Ryan. He was his best friend after all, but for some reason he wouldn't pick up his phone.

So that left me with Matthew. I tried to sooth him by rubbing his back and hugging him close to me, whispering all the comforting things that he needed to hear. He barely could bring a word out and sniffed once in a while before crying again.

I never wanted to see him like that ever again and I was deteemined to change all of this for him.

His heart broke down which meant that my heart broke down with him and my face fell in a pool of sadness. The tears almost left my eyes yesterday when I strongly held him against me as he kept crying himself till sleep. But I knew that I should stay strong for him and he needed me or at least someone right now more than ever.

It also wasn't the right time to be affectionate with him so I tried to talk to him about many topics and comfort him with other nice gestures even though I had the feeling that none of it worked at all.

It felt like the world crashed down on us, the clouds cried with us as the thunders made its appearance.

But on the other side, it was good that this happened because I knew that he kept all of this inside of him until he couldn't see the daylight, he was slowly damaging himself with it ever since that Rain died.

My hands found its way into his hair and I softly played with the strands. The other hand kept rubbing his back.

A soft laugh left my mouth when I saw that he was sleeping with his mouth open by now.

It was honestly adorable.

I was very lucky to have someone as beautiful from the in- and outside like Matthew Gray was. He was a huge present from the universe and angels.

And I couldn't believe that we went from hating one another to almost officially dating each other.

"Jus?" I heard a soft voice then.

His glassy eyes met mine, looking lifeless at me. The bags under them seemed way heavier and his eyes were red. Oh if I only could take away the pain from him.

"Hey.. How are you feeling?" I smiled soft and caressed his cheek.

For a couple of minutes he stayed silent as he looked away from me.

"I- I don't know.." He eventually answered me.

"It's okay.. I get it. I know you probably just want to stay inside all day, but you really have to go outside even if it's only for a five minute walk okay?" I asked him.

I did some research about his bipolar depression on my phone while he was asleep. One of the things that maybe could help him, was getting him outside and do something he used to like or was still interested in.

So my plan was to take him to a guitar shop if he was able to go out for a while.

"Okay.." He whispered soft sounding like a small puppy.

I kissed his hair before both of us got out of bed to walk to his bathroom.

"I won't look, I just need to do something okay?" I told him and looked through his drawers.

I wanted to make sure that I could leave him alone here without him doing something to himself, but luckily there was nothing unsafe to be found in his bathroom. His mom probably got rid of all the alcohol, pills and stuff. But you never know what could happen, I had to make sure of it.

And as promised I didn't look at his body, even though I wanted to, eventually I got out of the bathroom. I looked around his room for a second and grabbed one of Matthew his sweaters. It took a while when I found one that was big enough for me. The rest of them would've been too small for me.

I changed into the sweater and kept my jeans from yesterday on since Matthew had a smaller size. The smell of him hugged my body and I loved every bit of it, he smelled like mint and roses.

Not long after that, Matthew came back in some fresh clothes, his hair was messy like usual and he still looked tired. He did look a bit better than before.

But even like this, he was still looking drop dead gorgeous to me.

"Ready to go? I know a place where we can go" I smiled a bit at him.

"Yeah.." He nodded and followed right behind me as we walked towards my car.

We got in and I started driving. On the way it was quiet between us for a while which I perfectly understood.

"Thank you.." I heard Matt say from besides me.

"Huh?" I asked him confused as I parked the car.

"You stayed with me and tried to help me. You have been here to watch over me and I'm sorry that I ruined your whole day. I know you also barely slept thanks to me" He explained and looked embarrassed.

"Hey Matz.. It's really no problem don't even apologize nor thank me for that. I care a lot about you and want to help you when you need it okay?" I smiled and got out of the car.

"I- you always have me speechless" He smiled a bit and walked next to me.

"Well get used to it" I grinned and winked cheekily.

"Where are we going?" He asked me then.

I smirked as I grabbed his hand and started to walk towards the store. I was thrilled to see his response to this.

"It's a surprise" I laughed when I saw his big curious eyes looking back at me.

"Noooo I hate surprises Justin!" He whined again.

"I know" I winked to tease him.

"Meanie" He muttered soft.

"I heard that!" I pushed a kiss on his cheek while I smirked and walked further.

I stopped him by his shoulders when we arrived and walked right behind him to put my hands before his eyes.

"What are you doing?" He laughed and tried to push me away.

"Hey, no don't. It's for your surprise silly" I smirked.

"Okay just hurry up!" His voice sounded excited and impatient.

Carefully I led him inside the guitar store and brought him to the middle of the place.

Please god, let him love this and make him forget.

"Okay open your eyes baby" I whispered in his ear as I put my hands away to reveal the place to him.

He blinked a couple of times and looked around for a second before his eyes gone wide open in shock.

"Holy- w-wow! Am I in wonderland?" He gasped surprised and his smile grew wide.

"You didn't want to go outside, but I know you like guitars a lot so I thought maybe it would be worth it if I took you here. You can touch and try out these guitars!" I smiled at his face and took a mental picture of how happy he looked.

He looked like a kid in a candy store.

His big gray eyes wandered to all kinds of different guitars that were here in every shape, color and kind whilst he walked around and his eyes widened with the second that passed by.

"I know you told me that you weren't ready to play something for me.. But you can try something? You know I won't ever judge you Matz" I explained and softly caressed his hand.

He looked at our hands and smiled some more.

He grabbed a shiny brown guitar. His fingers softly traced over the strings, creating different soothing sounds and then he started to play a song after closing his eyes.

(PLAY THE SONG AT THE BEGINNING).

She was more like a beauty queen from a movie scene
I said don't mind, but what do you mean, I am the one
Who will dance on the floor in the round

My eyes widened at his angelic voice, all of a sudden making me weak in the knees and having me starstruck for him.

She told me her name was Billie Jean, as she caused a scene
Then every head turned with eyes that dreamed of being the one
Who will dance on the floor in the round, in the round

People gathered around us to look at how amazing he sang. He looked like he was on another planet, down to earth. His head swung with the beat he made and danced a bit.

People always told me be careful of what you do
And don't go around breaking young girls' hearts
Yeah!

Mama always told me be careful of who you love
And be careful of what you do 'cause the lie becomes the truth
Hey!

His eyes were still closed as he danced around the music. It was made for him. This was his home.

Billie Jean is not my lover
She's just a girl who claims that I am the one
But the kid is not my son, not my son
Billie Jean is not my..
Billie Jean is not my, lover..
Billie Jean is not my lover..

Billie Jean is not my lover

He ended the song slowly and beautifully then he opened his eyes with a shy smile as everyone started to clap loudly for him.

Including me,

His actual lover.