Youth
Shawn mended x Khalid

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Matthew Gray

"You still haven't told me what happened?" Justin spoke up.

I wiped my fresh tears away and wanted to scream, scream for help. The burning desire in my throat made me feel nothing but angry, still I tried to push that to the side.

Justin didn't deserve me. I was just a little baby who was overreacting about everything. I shouldn't be sad about it even though all of it became too much for me to handle.

I deserved all the bad that came my way.

My eyes connected with his forest green ones and in that immediate moment, my heart skipped a beat for him.

He was so inhumanly beautiful.

The soft blonde hair was perfectly styled again and his orbs were brighter than ever. A wide smile was upon his red cherry lips.

I wanted to kiss them so bad.

"I walked into Ryan making out with my ex best friend Jack" I simply answered, not in the mood to explain the whole story with details.

"Huh? What is so wrong about that Matt?" Justin asked and frowned confused.

"What.. What do you mean?" I also frowned then and broke our warm embrace to sit up.

I already felt like an empty box without his warmth and love around me no more.

"Well.. I think I can understand that you feel betrayed, but Matty.. You don't choose who you fall in love with. What if he is a good boy? Maybe he has changed.. I also did that for you" Justin explained further and took my hand in his, intertwining our fingers together.

After that, everything fell into its place like some sort of puzzle that had to be solved.

He made his point clear. Jack could be a different person. Maybe he was so against Rain and I, because he was struggling with his own identity in that moment and I was so dumb not to see that.

Could that have been it?

God, I feel so stupid and selfish right now. I could've prevented all this if I looked further into Jack and his feelings.

But I was just being my selfish self, like I always did.

"You're right, but I don't think I can fix this with Ryan. He probably hates me right now, who wouldn't hate me?" I sighed and looked away in shame.

His warm hands cupped my cheek, almost making me blush from the psychical contact. Butterflies flew everywhere around us.

"Matthew, nobody hates you. Ryan loves you okay? And I care about you. Don't let yourself down like this, you are worth it. People make mistakes. It's what makes us human" He said as he looked deep into my eyes, letting me drown in his nature eyes.

A pair of soft lips was placed onto mine. The same sparks and fireworks that he gave me found its way in my stomach again. I hummed at how careful and delicate he was kissing me, as if he was afraid to break me. He brought me to cloud nine, away from this earth.

I could do this for ever.

He broke the kiss, caressed my cheeks as he kept looking in my eyes.

"Oh and you're too late anyways, I already texted him. I can't stand seeing the both of you like this so you two are going to make it up to each other right now. That's it" He smirked as if he just won an Oscar.

As if on cue, the doorbell rang.

Ryan Allen

The front door opened after I rang the bell, my eyes instantly met my best friend's. My heart dropped in my stomach when I saw his current state.

His gray eyes were red and puffy as if he had been crying. I also couldn't deny the heavy dark bags underneath his eyes. He looked exhausted, done and broken.

It surprised me since he was almost a professional at covering his feelings.

What happened to him?

"Ryan?" Matthew spoke up once he saw me and before I knew it, I felt his arms being wrapped me.

"Oh Ry.. I'm so so so sorry, please forgive me. I was so stupid and s-selfish for getting angry at y-you. If Jack m-makes you happy then that's fine, because I c-care about you and want to g-give you all the love in the w-world and- and-" He rambled fast and I heard his voice crack.

A smile grew on my face as I started to rub his back in a comforting way.

"It's okay Matty, really.. Don't apologize to me okay? I get it, I shouldn't have lied to you and acted so moody while you did nothing" I said and hugged him tighter, I liked how he was taller and had a big build compared to me.

"I'm sorry, I'm so sorry.." He whispered in my ear as I buried my head in his neck.

I loved my best friend with my entire heart. He was so sweet, delicate and an actual baby, but in a good way. He was unbelievably strong and deserved much more than the hurting he got. I can't believe how this earth could've let him go through so much. I'm proud of how far he came.

"Ha! Finally they are cuddling!" Justin interrupted by yelling loud and grinned when he made his way to us.

I broke out of the nice hug and smiled at Justin. Thanks to him everything was okay right now. He texted me to come over and told me about how Matthew was crying. Eventually I decided to come by.

A nagging feeling was eating me from the inside when Justin explained it to me. I felt so guilty for never responding and not being there for my best friend, especially since he barely cried.

Justin also told me that he helped him as much as he could. I'm glad that Matt found someone like him and that he wasn't alone when he needed someone the most yet I couldn't help but feel this way.

I was his best friend and I was so stubborn not to answer.

"I'd love to stay babe, but I have to go" I heard Justin say to Matthew then as he placed a kiss on his cheek.

When I looked at them, I wanted to 'awe' right then and there. Matt and Jus were the opposites of each other yet they fitted so well and completed one another in ways that you couldn't imagine. They were literally goals together in my opinion, I shipped it so much!

"I also got to go, your mom is home now right? I will see you at school!" I smiled and hugged him one last time.

"Yeah my mom is home. I'll see you two soon okay?" He showed one of his shy smiles and went back inside.

Both Justin and I left together, we were walking next to each other towards the end of the street. This felt like a deja vu.

"You love him, don't you?" I asked him to break the silence.

This question had been a must to me for a while. I've seen it in the way they looked at each other like they were on another planet or how they lit up when they talked about one another. You couldn't deny the connection between them, it was just there.

Justin brought the good side out of Matthew. I saw the happiness in Matthew come back to life. Maybe not always, but I knew he was working hard for it and I haven't seen Matt this happy in a while.

It was almost a miracle.

"W-what? O-okay maybe.." Justin stuttered and blushed, he didn't try to make eye contact with me.

My smile widened at that moment. I knew Justin was in love with Matthew the moment they got lost in each other's eyes.

"You should tell him" I tried to encourage him.

It would do Matthew so much good if he heard those three magical words from Justin.

"Really?" He looked up at me with widened eyes.

"Yes! You two are truly adorable.. I can see how much you care for each other" I giggled and basically fangirled.

"Isn't it too early?" He asked me and I found a hint of insecurity in his shaking voice.

"Maybe, but Matt is really trying for you Justin. You changed him for the better and I know he wants to be happy. You are his happiness and last hope Jus" I said.

"But how?" He asked further. "I don't want to tell him this in a boring and normal way, he deserves way more than that" Justin told me.

"I have an idea" I smirked a bit while I explained my plans to him in excitement.