The Greatest
Sia

Matthew Gray

''OH MY FREAKING POTATOES I KNEW IT!''

My eyes widened once I heard someone scream and I tried to push Justin away from me. I met the same light gray eyes that I had. In that moment I honestly couldn't feel any more embarrased than I already did. My own mother saw me kissing my friend.

She screamed so loud, my headache even became worse from it. There was a huge smile on her face, it was almost creepy yet her smile was worth my killer headache.

"Oh I knew my little nugget was in love with Justy" She giggled like crazy and watched us.

"Mom!" I whined as I felt my cheeks heat up.

I didn't dare to look at Justin since I heard the little fucker grinning and he probably also had the biggest smirk plastered on his stupid perfect lips.

He just loved the fact that I could get flustered so easily and the freaking tease used that to his own advantage. I didn't need to look at him to know that.

When my mom seemed to be recovered from her small mental breakdown, she stood next to my bed and slowly caressed my cheek. It was a thing that she always did to comfort me. It was for me to know that she still loved and cared about me no matter what.

''How is my baby doing?'' She whispered while holding a more serious and worried expression this time.

It instantly made me feel guilty about all of this chaos that I created. How selfish was it of me to do this to her? Dad was basically never home and he wouldn't even care if he knew that I was in the hospital. I bet my mom tried to contact him and it actually struck my heart that he wasn't here right now.

I was always mommy's child and whatever the hell happened, I would always be her baby boy. Both of us knew that.

"I feel like shit, but the doctor said that what I am experiencing right now is completely normal. There is a possibility that I'm coming home this week" I explained and tried to smile at her to reassure her that I wasn't fully broken.

But even smiling seemed to be the hardest thing ever. Not just because my head was pounding or because my stomach was burning. It was because of the guilt that formed a heavy pit into my stomach. I actually felt sad with all of this. I brought them even more sadness, annoyance and problems by making them worry and visit me here.

"Honey, I know what you're thinking. It's not your fault okay? You can't help it either that being bipolar makes you do things that you normally wouldn't do" My mom whispered and continued carresing my cheek, making me lean on her hand even more to embrace her loving warmth.

Maybe she was right about this. Being bipolar makes you do things that you don't even want to do. I didn't choose to have this and I didn't exactly choose to kill myself, it was my bad episode that drove me into it and told me that it was okay to disappear.

To free everyone from the misery called Matthew Gray.

"Matty!" I heard a yell what sounded like Ryan, that made me snap out of my thoughts.

My head instantly turned towards the door to see the little adorable boy with huge eyes running towards me. He basically jumped on the bed and attacked me with one of his familiar hugs.

"Ow careful little buddy" I groaned as I felt my stomach hurt even though Ryan wasn't heavy at all.

"Sorry! Wow, you feel so warm, are you okay?" He balanced on his arms so his weight wasn't on my stomach anymore as he frowned worried.

"Yeah, these temperature changes are normal" I explained and wrapped my arms around him to hug him carefully without hurting myself.

"I thought I would never see you again" He muttered in my neck and hugged me back.

The sadness and relief in his voice almost broke my heart. He seemed genuinely scared to lose me and I didn't want to see him like this ever again.

"When you get out of the hospital, we will have a serious talk about all of this. We are not going to avoid this anymore Matthew" My mom spoke up with her soothing soft voice.

I sighed and eventually nodded, knowing she was right. I just didn't like to go back to therapy and I hated taking my medication with all of my heart yet I knew my life was in danger with this depression so I better just listen this time.

I really thought I was able to handle this all by myself and I felt so disappointed since I woke up here, because I ended up in a stupid hospital. I can't do this by myself and that was the only thing I wanted: to be strong enough to do it myself. But knowing that my mom and friends were here to help me through this, made me feel a whole lot better and more confident of myself and this situation.

"And I won't let you get out of my sight anymore" Justin finished with a stern look in his eyes.

"Yeah Matty, there are many ways to fight this. Please don't give up" Ryan said and almost looked like he was pleading me with his big wattery brown eyes.

"I won't give up" I said with all the determination and confidence I had left in me.

The rest of the day consisted mostly of Justin, Ryan and I talking. Sometimes my mom joined in and we actually laughed a lot. It was nice that all of us could get along so well, as if what just happened brought us even closer.

I didn't fear no more to be the greatest.

A/N: hey babes! I'm ill today and feel like dying haha. I still hope that you enjoyed this chapter! Let me know.

-Sjakiela