What I crave so deeply

has been taken away from me.

The things I wish I could feel again

have been drained from every inch of my body.

I wish I could see someone

And be filled with desire and fascination,

but I just haven't been able to.

I wish I could stick with one person,

one person who could make me happy for the rest of my life.

But there's too much beauty and too much pain to stay

so I end up running away.

It's not fair on me

it's not fair on my friends

but this is how I am

doomed with lust,

forbidden from love.