"that was a good movie. i mean... obviously not as good as the first one, but still good," namjoon said, still snacking on the popcorn as they walked out of the theatre, "what did you think?"

"it... it was good," jimin said, quietly.

jimin actually wasn't paying any attention to the movie at all. he was too focused on how he was supposed to tell joon about what had happened with hoseok. honestly, it felt like torture to think about it, but he knew he needed to tell joon.

they made it to the car and jimin wanted to tell him on the ride home, he really did. but he just couldn't bring himself to do it. joon was just in such a good mood and he just didn't want to ruin it. he seemed exited and talkative and happy. and jimin hated the thought of messing it up.

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they eventually made it back to jimin's apartment, namjoon pulling out the spare key jimin gave him and beginning to unlock the door. the two walked in and shut the door behind them, setting their coats on the coat rack.

"so... what do you wanna do?" namjoon asked, lazily, rubbing his hands together in attempt to warm them, "living room or your room?"

jimin just stood there for a moment, feeling the guilt and anxiety in him reach an all time high, quickly resorting to just wrapping his arms around his boyfriend and digging his head into his shoulder.

"...this works, too," joon said, with a laugh, completely oblivious to how upset jimin was.

they sat there in silence for a moment, embracing each other, until joon heard a soft little sniffle.

"jimin?" he questioned, quickly pulling jimin's face away from his shoulder.

the boy was pink. from his cheeks, to his small nose, to the tips of his ears. he looked utterly miserable, his cute little eyes all puffy and red, with tear soaked cheeks and wet eyelashes.

"oh my god," joon said, completely caught off guard, "jimin, what's wrong? did something happen?"

jimin just nodded, crying more, using his sleeve to try and wipe off his tears.

"jimin- shit. what happened?"

jimin let a few more tears slip, eventually speaking up,

"i love you so much, joonie," jimin said, sniffling, "... and you're gonna be mad at me."

joon shook his head, bringing his hands to the sides of jimin's face, using his thumbs to wipe his tears away, feeling confused.

"i won't be mad, jimin. what happened?"

jimin tried to calm down a little, focusing on joon's touch.

"you know... hoseok?" jimin asked, feeling the anxiety fizzling in him again.

"yeah," joon said, with a nod.

"well... he works at the café now. i went there to study yesterday and... and he ended up coming over and apologizing to me for everything. he even brought me hot chocolate and helped me with my homework. and then... i felt kind of like i should do something for him, so i offered to get him food and we hung out at my apartment for awhile," jimin said, frantically, eyes still teary.

joon nodded, clearly confused with where the story was going.

"well... we were getting along really well. you know... you're becoming such good friends with aruem... i just thought it would be nice if we all got along. i just wanted to be friends," jimin said, a few more tears falling, "i mean... ever since i got out of high school i haven't really put much effort into having a bunch of friends. i just wanted to have some fun."

joon listened intently, still wiping the tears as they streamed down jimin's face.

"well... we were sitting on my couch and watching tv. i was explaining to hoseok my theory about the sailor moon horoscope thing you and me always talk about, you know? and it was a lot of fun... i really though we were becoming friends and then-"

jimin stopped.

"...what happened?" joon asked, clearly worried, "did he say something to you?"

jimin shook his head.

"...well... he..," jimin stopped again, taking a deep breath, "... he.... he kissed me."

jimin stopped, nervous to look up and see joon's reaction. he felt horrible, really. he didn't want to kiss hoseok. he loved namjoon and he only wanted him.

jimin nervously looked up and met eyes with him.

his mouth was parted slightly. he looked confused and shocked and slightly sad.

"i didn't want to kiss him, joon, i swear. it came out of nowhere. i didn't even think he was into guys like that and... and then he just randomly kissed me. i just... i wanted a friend. that was all."

joon nodded, taking a minute to process.

"it was just... out of nowhere? he just... kissed you?" joon said, cringing at his own words.

jimin nodded.

"i'm so sorry, joon. i feel awful," jimin said, more tears bottling up in his eyes, "kissing someone who wasn't you... even for half a second... it felt so weird. i only want to kiss you. nobody else. ever."

namjoon just sighed with a nod, still looking like he was thinking.

jimin just stood there like a nervous wreck, biting at his nail as he tried to hold back crying anymore than he already had, clearly not doing a very good job when big doe-eyed tears started rolling down his red cheeks.

without thinking it over anymore, joon pulled jimin closer into a hug, wrapping his arms around him tightly, and kissing the top of his head.

"it's okay," he said, pulling away just slightly, trying to use his sleeves to wipe off the last of jimin's tears, "it's not your fault"

jimin shook his head again, parting away from joon completely.

"it is my fault," jimin said, "i should have realized he thought i was being flirty. i really wasn't trying to be... i was just trying to be nice... but he took it the wrong way. i really just thought he was a nice straight guy. i just... i never thought-"

"jimin, really, it's okay," joon said, lifting his chin up to look at him, "i know you wouldn't cheat on me or anything like that. i trust you."

jimin just smiled at him, with another sniffle, leaning up to kiss him again.

the whole thing went surprisingly well. jimin was lucky he had such an understanding boyfriend or the conversation might not have gone as well.

the two kissed for a solid two minutes, before breaking away.

"hoseok doesn't get to kiss you like that, does he?" joon asked, with a small laugh.

jimin quickly shook his head, with a smile.

"he doesn't."

the two stood there for a moment, joon getting lost in thought.

"what about aruem? she's gonna be... crushed."

"yeah," jimin said, wrapping his arms around joon again, letting his chin rest on his shoulder, "he said it didn't even mean anything and he feels horrible about it. i think he just had like... a homosexual awakening or something... i don't know. but he still loves aruem and he feels really bad."

jimin lifted his head up and looked at joon right in the eye.

"you're just stealing all of aruem's boyfriends, huh?" joon said, laughing again.

jimin laughed, too, with a sigh.

"she's gonna hate me."

joon shook his head.

"she won't."

silence fell amongst the two, both of them just processing everything they talked about and thinking

"i love you so much. really. i probably would have freaked out if you told me someone kissed you," jimin said, with a little laugh, "you're so calm and sweet and loving and i don't deserve you."

joon blushed, smiling, looking down to the floor and then back up at him.

"i... i love you, too," joon said, clearly a bit embarrassed at jimin's sweet confession.

jimin just smiled at him for a minute, before his face settled, just staring at him with a look in his eye that joon couldn't read.

"prove it," jimin said, straight expression on his face.

joon looked beyond confused.

"what?"

"prove you love me," jimin said, moving closer to him, bodies pressed together.

namjoon's face went completely red, his eyes widening.

"prove i love you?" he asked, quietly, his breath caught in his throat.

jimin nodded.

"i'm ready if you are."

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who's ready for smutttttt 🤩🤩

that chapter will probably take a lot of time to write cuz my smuts are always hella long and hard to write so sorry in advance dnjdjdjdj