It has been already seven hours since I let Suzy go at the airport. Already that much time passed since her plane took off. But I could still feel her body's warmth on mine. I smiled to myself like an idiot unintentionally. When suddenly my phone rung and I picked it up without checking to see who was calling. After all the screen showed some random number anyways.

"Hello?"

I said and almost laughed in to the phone. My voice was so different. Suzy changed me.

"Park Jimin?"

I weak familiar voice questioned my identity. The mood of mine changed from excited and happy, to concerned and curious within seconds.

"Yeah, it's me."

I replied forgetting to ask, who was calling. Luckily the person on the other side was smart enough to introduce itself without my encouragement.

"It's Lulu, Jimin... I can't say this over the phone, can you come to my parent's house?"

I couldn't understand what could have been so important. Maybe Lulu needed help, whatever was the reason I wasn't going to say no. Lulu was Suzy's sister, so basically my family. I would have done anything for her just like for her sister.

"I'll be right there."

I assured her and hung up before she said goodbye. Maybe it was my habit, to be honest, I didn't even say goodbye to Suzy... I knocked on the wooden door at the old small house that was standing out the town in which I lived. Even known the house had a full glass wall I couldn't see anything or anyone inside it was completely dark.

Soon I heard key being twirled in the lock and door opened. In front of me was mister Bae, Suzy's father standing. I smiled at him, but he didn't even grin at me. He just moved out the way letting me in. His eyes seemed to be empty, without expression, just like his younger daughter's and his skin was like grey.

I wanted to ask him what did Lulu wanted from me, but I controlled myself all way until we reached some white door in the end of the hallway and he knocked on it three times. The sweet angelic voice of Lulu could have been heard from the other side.

"Come in father."

She said and he opened the door for me I thanked him silently and stepped in right before mister Bae closed the door behind me leaving two of us alone.

"It's me Lulu, Jimin."

I informed the girl. She was sitting in the chair, her back facing me. Her face was turned to the window and her eyes wide open looking at the evening's light. If I didn't know the truth I would have thought she was enjoying the view.

"Jimin... you shouldn't have come."

Suddenly she mumbled and I felt like slapped. What did she mean? She just called and invited to come, she told me to come. But now, she said that I shouldn't have.

"Lulu, what is it?"

I asked her softly and walked up to her and stood in front of the window. Somehow her lifeless eyes felt that I blocked the light and she lifted her head there my eyes should have been, but she couldn't tell if I was truly there or not.

The crystal clear tear escaped her eye and I leaned forwards wiping it off out of instinct. She didn't smile because of my gesture, she didn't react to it at all.

"There is no more light in this words."

She whispered out of nowhere and I looked back at the window confused. The sun was shining right into my eyes.

"Lulu, there is, you just can't see it."

I said uneasy and bit my tongue. I wasn't so sure if it was okay to remind her about the illness she had to live with. Instead of getting mad she just sadly shook her head.

"It's all gone, but for you... it's still there. Maybe I shouldn't take it away after all."

I couldn't understand what she was talking about. My heart was telling me that the girl did not talk about the sunlight or even moonlight, there was something behind those words.

"Lulu, please tell me."

I begged her kneeling down in front of her all though she couldn't see it I was sure she felt it. I put my hands on her shoulders from both of her head sides and waited... it looked like I waited for seven more hours before she spoke, but I couldn't feel how time flew.

"Suzy was my light. And now she's gone."

The words hurt me. It immediately hit my heart and soul painfully hurting it without any chance to heal, but my mind was still not on the same page. I was looking for an answers, like hungry animal looks for food to survive.

"What do you mean?"

"The plane... it... it fell. Not a single person survived."

Her words seemed to be coming from very, very far. I couldn't even understand the meaning. I just took it as a fact that she spoke. I let go of her shoulders and wrapped my own arms around my body. I lied down on the cold ground and looked in to nowhere.

The warmth that I felt for so long suddenly disappeared like it was never real. Now I was freezing. The storms that stopped seven days ago then I finally held a conversation with Suzy came back with double power and now was ripping me apart. But for the whole different reason than before. Or maybe it was the same...

Back then I couldn't build up a courage to talk to the girl of my dreams, so we never spoke. Now as much as I wanted I still couldn't talk to her. And I won't be able to hear her speak ever again. Or see her smile, her tears. Dance with her. Nothing it was all gone.

"No... it's not real."

I whispered to myself and grabbed the phone from the pocket of my pants. I knew that Lulu was aware of what was I doing, but she didn't try to stop me, she knew I had to understand this myself. I chose the number from the list and started calling after few long beeps, this waiting equaled an eternity for me. No one on the other side picked up my call. The groan escaped my mouth and I threw a useless device to the wall. It couldn't call Suzy, so what else could it be used for?

"Where are you going?"

Lulu asked as she felt me standing up and walking out her room. I looked around, but I knew there was nothing for me here.

"To my mother."

I didn't see a point in lying. I closed the door and at the last second I noticed her nodding at me. I turned around and suddenly faced mister Bae once again. The man seemed ten years older than this morning. The pain in his eyes were indescribable, but I bet I had the same look.

"You gave me a word to get her there safe... thank you for keeping the promise."

"I shouldn't have let her go on."

I said to him disappointed with myself. Why did I let her escape my embrace? But Suzy's dad just shook his head disagreeing with me.

"You couldn't possibly know... it was her dream."

"I could have changed everything!"

I suddenly shouted and another groan came out my mouth. I hit the wall with my fist and felt how Ki-Woo put's his hand on my back and taps few times. I turned to him and he shook his head once more.

"My boy, you can't change the past. But please can you promise me to continue on living? Please don't ruin your future."

He cared about me. More than my father. However this time I didn't give him my word. I just walked out.

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