I found you
In sad songs
Sound of rain
Sunset
Sundays
Smile
And every small things

10 years later
Jungkook pov

" last ten round soldiers, you are good to go" I comanded and they sprinted with full speed. A very peaceful smile speared on my face to see the sunset at sky.

My smile fell when I saw the time, no fucking way It's 6pm already, I dismissed the trainee and walked as fast as possible.

My speed is very high for a 38 year old. I saw Jackson saying something to one of his friends, they both are bickering over something.  I shook my head, he can't live a day without trouble.

And when we are talking about Jackson then there should be sunjun but he wasn't here, he realized he wasn't made for military so he left it and now he is happily a social worker and living his life.

Aera and Hoseok are married from past 5 years with a sweet baby boy, Jae moved on in her life and we talked like last month she was happy in her newly wedded life. Haneul is very much working in special force at border, we don't talk much.

Yoongi, he left the military probably went back to his country. No one ever heard from him in past 9 years.

About me? I got promotion yet I like to train the new soldiers.

And about love life?

I have her

" SIR" I cursed under my breath when I heard the Journalist walking upto me, I really was kill him but stopped myself before flashing a smile.

" Do you have 5 minutes?" he asked and I never stopped, he was trying to catch up with me long step, stumbling in his own making me snort at him " sure" I mumbled half heartily and he quickly pulled out his phone where he have written his questions.

" Is it true that you loved a spy from different country?" He asked, the same question which I have heard for more than 1000 times " yes" I breath out the truth. Is it hard to belive?

" you betrayed her for your country?" He asked and I chuckle before stopping my feet from walking " Will you belive if I say, she betrayed me?" I asked back and he titled his head in confusion and abundant his phone.

" But you killed her" he tried to debate and I shrugged slightly " I did" I accepted and again started walking, he kept following me " I didn't understand anything " he said when I hope on my bike and started it " you don't have to" with a smirk I drove away not caring the way he tried to stop me by chasing me for few meters.

I reached home, purchased by my own money, whatever under the name of Jeong-ho, we have left it behind. The money he had, was taken by government and its gone for good.

I remember my mom crying, screaming and wailing, she refuse to belive he did something like killing his own son but it took her some time she did belive it. We are happy now.

I smiled when I saw my mom was waiting with a big grin plastered on her face " you are late today" she informed and I rolled my eyes before nodding my head, already stripping out of my clothes " I know, I know say something else" I Said and slammed the door of my room shut.

" you are a brat" I heard her and whinned back, bam was sitting silently beside me, I cooed at him, he started licking and sniffing me " we are going to meet her" I Said and like he can understand he started to roll which made me chuckle.

I quickly took a shower and fitted myself into a fresh clothes and stroll out, bam followed me behind wiggling his tail happily.

"Here" my mom gave me the food box and smiled, she have made favorite food of my favorite person, I kissed on the top of her head for appreciation " Thank you mom" I Said and earned a slap from her on my back.

" what are you thanking for? Keeping you in my womb for 9 months" she asked pulling my ear and I yelped " okay, I'm sorry, I'm an adult now, leave me" she tighten the grip before finally leaving, my skin is bright red.

I rubbed the spot pouting but choose not to comment and started walking with a huffed expression, Bam follow me after " Say her hello from me" I heard the voice of women who gave me birth and yelled back 'okay'.

I made bam sit on the bike and started it with a good speed. She must be waiting for me and now look at me, I'm fucking late, great.

Within few minutes I'm finally at my destination, I step out of bike along with bam, my face met with soft smell of wild flowers. A peaceful smile formed on my face.

I greeted by Uncle at distance who manage everything in here " Hello Jungkook, how are you?" He asked and I showed a okay sign " I'm good, is your willy okay now?" I asked and he nodded, willy is his cat who was unhealthy from past few days.

" see you" I Said and he smiled at me, I momentarily step toward the stone name engraved very beautiful, Morana.

" Sorry love, I know I'm late" I mumbled like she can hear me, and she can cause the way wind caresses my face said it's okay.

How I manage to get her coffin? Every single thing she did was credited to me. I was the one there to take all the medals instead of her and her team hard work but the one thing good happen that the head asked me what I wanted as a bravery achievement.

I asked for her body.

And now here is she, my wife just six feet away from me, I chuckle while removing the wild grasses as they will ruin the grave, I cleaned the area and placed the mat beside her, plop down and gazed at the stars. I can see her face formed in them. The way stars twinkle told me she is smiling just like I'm doing right now.

" Are you happy above? Do you miss me?" I asked the same question once again and welcomed by silence. I guess she is happy but I miss her, Bam snuggle upto me and lick my wet cheeks. My one hands pat him while other tracing the edge of the grave like I'm touching her, her soul, her body.

I talked about my day to her, that's the daily thing to do. I come here with her favorite food, flowers and sometimes cigarettes, talking to her grave feels like talking to her. The peace my mind feels here can't be comparable

" And I told her, I don't approve her so call boyfriend " I frown my eyebrow " How can Nabi cheat on me, her prince charming, I'm her hubby" I Said and pouted, I can imagine Morana would have pulled my cheeks harshly making fun of me before kissing it.

I can just imagine.

"Do you know, I went through Hunjun personal dairy and found the song, I completed it" I Said excitedly and sit up eyes staring upto her.

The song was about incomplete love and it feels like it's defining us. My eyes stare get close when I begin to sing it along with the flashbacks.

( please, please, play "Hamari adhuri kahani" and those who don't understand hindi can go with, "in the stars". You wanna feel the emotion, do it please* puppy eyes* )

I wish it's easy

I  swiftly approached her for help, extend my hands toward her and she eye my face then my hand in questioning manner before her mouth" thank you but I can help myself" she said getting up by herself, my mouth hung in  disbelief. Did she just rejected my polite harmless help?  

I wish I could run to you

I slide my head to her shoulder while my hands rest at her lap and I intertwined our fingers together" let me sleep like this, it's comfortable this way" I Said snuggling close to her neck, feeling how her breath quicken by close proximity.

But there's mountain in between,
There's bridge I can't walk through.

" why you did that?" I asked with broken voice and racing heart" Am I nothing to you?" I said, I don't fear death but the thing is she the one I loved and she didn't think twice before pulling the trigger on me, why why the question is bugging me so much.

I know you wanna see my scars hidden beneath,
I know you wanna heal them, turn yourself into my protective sheath,

" I'll listen to you tell me" I said and she shrugged with a smile. She doesn't want me to know.

But if I ever let you know,
I won't be able to turn my back at you

" I don't care for you, I just need you and after that I'll kill you from my own hands" I stare at her orbs and she did back. She didn't hesitated to say that. Is she really going to kill me?

I can't promise I'll be yours

" please just say you won't leave me" I begged tighten the grip on her hands bringing it close to my heart placing a kiss on top of her knuckles, my tears are dripping on it " I can't promise something which isn't in my control" she look at me with shiny eyes

I can't promise I'll walk to you in white,

" I do" I wishpered closely to her lips with very serious love sick expression which made her giggle out at my cute attempt. I waited for her to say it back and she tapped my nose with a " I do" And our lips met sealing our fate forever.

We both know we aren't meant to be together,
We both know it's just dream which we can't make forever

" we are similar yet so different" I look at her and she is looking ahead not meeting my gaze " why can't be just together without any restrictions, without any boundaries, why can't we just -- you and I?" I asked, bite my lips to control my emotions before I break down in front of her and beg on my knees to accept me back.

So just love me love please, hold me tight, one more time,
Let's not end this night, kiss me right,
One more time.
You and I.

" I don't wanna end this night, please Jungkook hold me tighter" she said and I did, I wanna make her feel safe and secure in my arms even if it's last time.

For those People who thinks love is just for show,
Let them see I can die for you in secret.

I momentarily tighten my grip; like I can prevent her from leaving me, we separated " Our love should be secret, we are enemies in the eyes of world" she pushed me back harshly and pointed her gun at me.

Maybe in some other life,
We are laying side by side,
Watching stars as they make there way back home,
In some other life, it'll going to be you and I.

" you'll be always mine in the back of my mind and I'll be yours, I'll find you first in my next life, I promise" she nodded at me encouraging me to pull the trigger.

Until then, love me please, hold me tight, one more time.
Let's not end this night, kiss me right, Just one more time

You and I

I smile after opening my eyes which were filled with tears, I don't know if it's of happiness or agony because we have gone through both, I miss her so much. I love her so much.

But I can live like this, cause she is here with me, in the badminton track where she would do her all clumpy act, in the mess hall where I can feel her smiling upto me, in the forbidden forest where she punched me in the face. In the gun she left writing ' I hate you'.

she is in the snowflakes, the same snowflakes which witness our marriage. She is deep inside engraved in my soul, in me. We both are same soul diffrent body.

She taught me every excellent thing that if we get what we desire than it'll be happy ending?

Not true, atleast not always.

I found the women I always desired and then I lost her.

Because no matter how hard we try, How badly we wanted but some stories just doesn't have happy ending.

Why?

Because they never ends.

Maybe in this life, it was just you and I!

But in next it'll be " us"

THE END?

So here the another Journey finish, hope I able to reach the your heart, hope if you close this book and feels it shouldn't have ended, I really enjoyed writing it and expecting the same from you that you enjoyed reading it.

Tell me your favorite duo in the book and favorite character, a favorite line and favorite scene if you can remember.

I'm leaving the book with 3.3k view and 1.11k likes let's see where it take me.

I'm crying, like seriously crying maybe cause I'm an emotional person, I wanna keep writing this book okay I should shut up now.

Bye love you❤️

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My life was full of lies
But the best one was
You and I